Meredith: [voiceover] We all remember the bed time stories of our childhoods. The
shoe fits Cinderella, the frog turns into a prince, sleeping beauty is awakened
with a kiss. Once upon a time and then they lived happily ever after. Fairy
tales, the stuff of dreams. The problem is, fairy tales don't come true. It's
the other stories, the ones that begin with dark and stormy nights and end in
the unspeakable. It's the nightmares that always seem to become reality. - The
person that invented the phrase "Happily ever after" should have his
ass kicked, so hard!!
Patient: [is having memory lapses every
thirty seconds following a car crash and can't remember anything and
keeps asking the same questions] Hello? Is someone there? Where
am I?
AK: You're in a spaceship. You're going to the moon. Enjoy the
ride.
MB: I have a dream, Yang... That one day
a trauma, will come through these doors.... I have a dream.
CY: I share that dream.
MG: Okay, I built the house of candles, that is unprecedented in
the Meredith chronicles.
DS: Fine, let's move in
together.
MG: Fine.
DS: Unless of course you just wanna go ahead and get married ....
AHA! Gotcha! You wanna know where I learned that? It goes with the story of how
I cut my hand.
MG: And then you know what's gonna happen after he moves in don't
you? We build a house on his land, which will be OUR land because we'll be
married. And then I'll be Dr. Mrs. Shepherd. And you know what comes after that
don't you? Babies. They'll be his babies so they'll have perfect hair, and they'll
be chatty. So I'll have five chatty children, a chatty husband, and live in a
house in the wilderness. And then I'll start sleeping
with your husband. I gotta tell him I've changed my mind. Don't you think?
CY: MEREDITH!
Meredith [voiceover]: Once upon a time, happier ever after. The stories we tell
are the stuff of dreams. Fairy tales don't come true. Reality is much stormier.
Much murkier. Much scarier. Reality it’s so much more interesting than living
happily ever after.
Meredith: [voiceover] As surgeons we are trained to fix
what’s broken. The breaking point is our starting line... at work. But in our
lives the breaking point is a sign of weakness and we’ll do everything we can
to avoid it.
“My patient's dying. I hate when I like them
and they're dying.” – MG
[bribing Meredith with a muffin] “Eat the muffin. Taste the muffin. Remember the muffin.” –
IS
MS: [to
Lexie, at the bar] So... a
photographic memory, huh? [pause]Periodic
Table. Go.
LG: Hydrogen, helium, lithium, beryllium, boron, carbon, nitrogen,
oxygen, fluorine, neon, sodium, magnesium, aluminum, silicon, phosphorus,
sulfur. I can keep going.
MG: [to
her shrink in the elevator] What
was the point? All those hours and all that money? What's the point? The world
is a horrible place. Young people die of diseases. It makes absolutely no sense
to try to be happy in a world that's such a horrible place.
Dr. Wyatt: [to
Meredith] Yes.
MG: What?
Dr. Wyatt: Yes, horrible things do happen. Happiness in
the face of all of that... that's not the goal. Feeling the horrible and
knowing that you're not gonna die from those feelings, that's goal. [she stops the elevator] And
you're not done. You've made progress because you're feeling and you're telling
me about it. Six months ago, it would've been just you and a bottle of tequila.
My door is always open.
Meredith: [voiceover] Bones break. Organs burst. Flesh
tears. We can sew the flesh, repair the damage, ease the pain. But when life
breaks down...when we break down...there’s no science. No hard and fast rules.
We just have to feel our way through. And to a surgeon there’s nothing worse,
and there’s nothing better.
Meredith: [voiceover] In 6500 BC, some guy looked at his
friend and said "Let's drill a hole in your head... that will make you
feel better." And thus surgery was born. It takes a certain brand of crazy
to think of drilling into someone's skull, but surgeons have always been a
confident bunch. We don't always know what we're doing, but we act like we do.
We walk into a country, plant a flag and start ordering people around. It's
invigorating and terrifying.
“People are terrible to the people they love
sometimes. They're mean. You were both having a hard time and you took it out
on each other. It doesn't make you the worst wife in the world. It just makes
you a person who made a mistake.” – IS
“Lie to me again and the only heart you'll ever
see is yours as I'm cutting it out of your chest with a steak knife.” – EH
Meredith: [voiceover] We like to think we're fearless, eager
to explore unknown lands and soak up new experiences, but the fact is, we're
always terrified. Maybe the terror is part of the attraction. Some people go to
horror movies. We cut things open. Dive into dark water. And at the end of the
day, isn't that what you'd rather to hear about? If you've got one drink and
one friend and 45 minutes. Slow rides make for boring stories. A little
calamity. Now that's worth talking about.
Meredith: [voiceover] I am a rock. I am an island. That's
the mantra to pretty much every surgeon that I've ever met. We like to think
we're independent. Loners. Mavericks. That all we need to do our jobs is an OR,
a scalpel, and a willing body...But the truth is, not even the best of us can
do it alone. Surgery, like life, is a team sport...and eventually, you've gotta
get off the bench and decide... which team are you batting for.
MB: We're
ready for you, Grey.
MG: Walking with the kidney... [she
drops the kidney]
MB: Five second rule! Five second rule!
RW: What are you people
doing?
IS: We were just uh, just
deciding which of our interns to give to George.
CY: Uh huh.
MB: Oh you think I got to choose my interns? And I picked you
people... 'cause you're all such a surgical dream team? [to Alex] You,
you're lazy, [to
Izzie] you're
whiney, [to
Meredith] butter
fingers over there... down right depressing, and [to
Cristina]you, Yang, you're just annoying. Choosing their own interns!
What are...
RW: Give me those damn cards. [hands
cards to George] O'Malley,
you have interns.
“Interns. The other white meat.” – AK
Meredith: [voiceover] The thing about choosing teams in real
life.. It's nothing like it used to be in gym class.. being 1st picked can be
terrifying And being chosen last... isn't the worst thing in the world. So we
watch from the sidelines... clinging to our isolation... because we know as
soon as we let go of the bench... someone comes along and changes the game
completely...
Meredith: [voiceover] For a surgeon, every patient is a
battlefield. They're our terrain. Where we advance, retreat, try to remove all
the landmines...And just when you think you've won the battle, made the world
safe again. Along comes another landmine...
[Callie and Mark are in bed together in the on call room. When
someone knocks on the door, she hides under the covers]
DS: I’m gonna yell at the major general. Wanna come?
MS: Hell yeah. Be right there.
DS: Hey Torres.
CT: [from
under the covers] Hey.
Meredith: [voiceover] Some wars result in complete and total
victory. Some wars end with a peace offering. And some wars end in hope...But
all these wars are nothing compared to the most frightening war of all. The one
you have yet to fight.
Meredith: [voiceover] If you’re a normal person, one of the
few things you can count on in life is death. But if you’re a surgeon, even
that comfort is taken away from you. Surgeons cheat death. We prolong it. We
deny it. We stand and defiantly give death the finger.
[Derek gets in the elevator, Mark is there]
DS: I need you to have sex with Cristina Yang.
MS: Well Good morning. I'm
not your stud horse. You can't just...tell me who to sleep with
DS: You slept with my wife.
[elevator dings]
MS: Yeah, I'll give it a shot
CY: The wife's here, of the beating victim. She ID'd her husband,
so I-
OH: What's his name? I
wondered if you asked her her husband's name so that he would become a person
to you. They're all people, Yang. This is not a game or a contest or a
competition to see who gets surgeries and who doesn't. They're people and we
get to save them. Now you're good. You're excellent and you can win all the
contests. But if that's why you're doing this then you shouldn't be. Did you
find out his name?
CY: [closes
the door and sits down in front of Owen] My dad
died when I was nine. In a car accident, I was with him in the car. While we
waited for the ambulance, I tried to keep his chest closed, so he wouldn't
bleed so much. When he died, my hands felt his heart stop beating. That's why I
do this. It's also why I win all the contests. The patient's name is Tom. [leaves]
[George has been working on saving a simulated
robot patient all day and the robot keeps coding and bleeding. George shocks
the robot with an AED and the robot's heartrate returns to normal and the
bleeding stops] “Yes! You
don't get to die!” – GO
Meredith: [voiceover] We're born, we live, we die...
sometimes not necessarily in that order. We put things to rest, only to have
them rise up again. So if death is not the end, what can we count on anymore?
Because you sure can't cound on anything in life. Life is the most fragile,
unstable, unpredictable thing there is. In fact, theres only one thing in life
we can be sure of. It ain't over, till it's over.
Meredith: [voiceover] It's intense, what happens in the OR,
when lives are on the line and you're poking at brains like they're silly
putty. You form a bond with the surgeons right next to you. An indescribable,
unbreakable bond. It's intimate being tied together like that. Whether you like
it or not, whether you like them or not, you become family.
IS: I said goodbye. I
burned the sweater!
Denny: Yeah,
thanks for that, by the way. I loved that sweater. You made me that sweater…Izzie...
stop freaking out.
IS: You're not real. You're not real.
Denny: Hey, I told you.
IS: You're not real! You're not real! You're not real!
Denny: Look at me. Touch me. :[Izzie touches Denny's chest] See? Told you I was real.
IS: [to
Denny's ghost] You are
not real.
Denny: Izzie, I am as real as you or that gooey, disgusting thing
down there. [holds
out his hand] Touch
me. [Izzie slowly raises her hand,
but stops herself] Izzie,
touch me!
IS: No! Why are you here? Why?
Denny: I'm here for you, Izzie Stevens.
Clay: You have your beliefs, I have mine.
Dr. Dixon: I don't have beliefs, I have science.
Clay: Science is a belief. You believe in only what you can see and
touch. I believe in more.
DS: [Meredith
has asked Derek to talk to Mark about staying away from Lexie] Little Sloan does not enter Little Grey. Are we clear?
MS: Did you just say...
DS: Mmmhmmm.
MS: Okay. That's just creepy and inaccurate. Big Sloan.
Meredith: [voiceover] The ties that binds us are sometimes
impossible to explain. They connect us even after it seems like the ties should
be broken. Some bonds defy distance and time and logic; Because some ties are
simply... meant to be.
Meredith: [voiceover] When you're little, night time is
scary because there are monsters hiding right under the bed. When you get older
the monsters are different. Self doubt, Loneliness, Regret. And though you may
be older and wiser, you still find yourself scared of the dark.
“I'm just gonna keep my eyes closed. Because
this is like that moment in the morning when you first wake up and you're still
half asleep and everything seems... Things are possible. Dreams feel true and
for that one moment between waking and dreaming, anything can be real and then
you open your eyes and the sun hits you and then you realize. I'm just gonna
keep my eyes closed.” – IS
DS: [moaning
coming from Izzie's room] Who's
making a porno movie in Izzie's room?
AK: Relax. She's flying solo. That's hot.
“Sometimes, words fail.” – OH
[Patient has taken medication that has killed the
healthy bacteria in her body. Alex just told her that she needs a fecal transplant
to survive] “Poop? I need a poop transplant?” – Lauren, patient
Meredith: [voiceover] Sleep. Its the easiest thing to do;
you just close your eyes. but for so many of us, sleep seems out of grasp. We
want it, but we don't know how to get it. Yet once we face our fears and turn
to each other for help, night time isn't so scary because we realize even in
the dark, we aren't all alone.
Meredith: [voiceover] My mother called it the greatest and
most terrifying moment in her life, standing at the head of the surgical table
knowing that the patient’s life depends on you and you alone. It what we all
dream about because the first person that gets to fly solo in the OR, kind of a
badass.
AK: Listen. You had that heart patient and it reminded you of
Denny and how bad you felt when you were lying on that bathroom floor. I get
that! I get that you're scared. But you're not going to have to feel like that
again. Because I'm not going to die, Izz. And I'm not gonna cheat on you, and
I'm not gonna go anywhere! 'Cause, I think you're my best shot at... I think
with you... you make me better. You make me wanna BE better. You make me want
to be good. And I think I can. With you. I think I can. So I'm not going
anywhere, and you can stop hiding. And if you wanna be scared that's okay just
be scared with me. Be scared while you scrub in with me on my first solo
surgery. Okay?
IS: You love me.
AK: Shut up. [kisses her, leaves] Solo surgery!
Denny: I'm really starting to not like that guy.
CY: My gut? I'm not putting a patient's life in the hands of a
novice surgeon based on my gut.
OH: Worked for me.
CY: I bet.
OH: It's what told me to choose you.
“Saw action. Sweet!” – AK
“Choosing the first solo surgery isn't just
about who has the best surgical skills. Or who's logged the most hours in the
OR. It's about the highest form of trust. The trust to put a patient's life
into one of our residents' hands. And for the first time I can recall, every
single attending picked the same person. Dr. Yang. However, Dr. Yang is out of
the running. She is going to pick the winner instead. Dr. Yang will post her
decision on the O.R. board at 4 p.m. Also, since your interns are still banned
from the O.R., the winner will be allowed to pick a fellow resident to scrub in
with them. Good luck.” – RW
Meredith: [voiceover] We enter the world alone and we leave
it alone. And everything that happens in between, we owe it to our self to find
a little company. We need help. We need support. Otherwise we’re in it by our
self. Strangers, cut off from each other and we forget just how connect we all
are. So instead we choose love. We choose life and for a moment we feel just a
little bit less alone.
Meredith: [voiceover] We all get at least one good wish in a
year over the candles on our birthday. Some of us throw in more, on eyelashes,
fountains, lucky stars. And every now and then, one of those wishes come true.
So what then? Is it as good as we hoped? Do we bask in the warm glow of our
happiness or do we just notice we’ve got a long list of other wishes waiting to
be wished.
Meredith: [voiceover] We don’t wish for the easy stuff. We
wish for big things. Things that are ambitious, out of reach. We wish because
we need help and we’re scared and we know we may be asking too much. We still
wished though because sometimes they come true.
“I'm worried about my hospital dying. I made
some calls to replace Kinley. No one wants to come here. I can't keep a cardiac
surgeon on staff. Burke quit. Hahn quit. Dixon's autistic. My OR roof
collapsed, the whole place flooded. The interns are literally chopping each
other into little pieces. No wonder we're number 12. Twelve!” – RW
OH: You okay? Want to get a drink or something?
CY: Oh. Oh, now we're on again 'cause the mood suits you? Because
I'm the sad little girl with no friends and I tripped your savior complex into
action? Usually I can deal with the hot and cold thing, but not today. Just
leave me the hell alone.
MS: We're going to need a strategy. Their hot little eyes tracking
our every move.
CT: Okay. No casual glances over the shoulder. No "this is
interesting, come and have a see."
“All crimes are crimes of passion. There's
always a reason. People don't do stuff like that because they forget it's
illegal.” – MG
OH: Seems like you're short of a friend today, so I thought I'd
fill in.
CY: Whatever. Colleagues aren't friends, they're competitors.
Meredith: [voiceover] My mother used to say this about
residency, “It takes a year to learn how to cut. It takes a lifetime to learn
not to.” Of all of the tools on the surgical tray, sound judgment is the
trickiest one to master. And without it, we’re all just toddlers running around
with ten blades.
MS: Why do you have to live in Meredith's attic? How am I supposed
to sneak out of here with a frat party going on downstairs? Don't you kids ever
sleep?
LG: They're cleaning the house for Dr. Shepherd's mom
MS: Mrs. Shepherd's coming... to Seattle?
LG: So?
MS: So that woman practically raised me...taught me right from
wrong. If she found that I was ... with you ... that we were... You're Meredith
Grey's little sister. You are forbidden fruit. You are twenty-five. You're a
fetus.
LG: Twenty-four. I skipped third grade.
MS: I feel dirty.
DS: You are wearing an alarmingly high ponytail.
MG: Your mother is coming!
“Shut up! Respectfully. Respectfully shut up.
Because we've got organs.” – AK [to Bailey and Arizona]
“I think it's nice. Your date. I think you and the pig
murderer make a really good couple.” – IS
Mrs.
Shepherd: How many sexual partners have you had? I won't judge.
LG: Six. No, seven. Kind of six. Kind of seven.
Mrs.
Shepherd: Criminal record?
LG: Speeding ticket.
Mrs.
Shepherd: How fast?
LG: Twelve miles over.
Mrs.
Shepherd: That's fast.
LG: It wasn't too ... it was way too fast, but I was downhill. I
was coasting, ma'am.
Mrs.
Shepherd: Now I don't suppose you can tell me ... where the gift shop
is?
“You don't think that I know that they just
pulled the plug on the kid? You don't think that I get that? You don't think I
know about the tiny, tiny coffin that they're going to stick him in? I know
about the tiny coffins. I see them all the time. In my sleep. So if you don't
mind, I'm going to keep talking relationships and rainbows and crap. And I'm
going to make plans for tomorrow. Because that's what you do, Karev, you make
plans. You have to. You turn your back on the tiny coffins and you face
forward, ntil the next kid.” – AR
Mrs.
Shepherd: You've been avoiding me.
MS: What? No.
Mrs.
Shepherd: You've got that same look on your face as you did when you were
ten years old. You put Derek's favorite frog into the microwave.
Meredith: [voiceover] We’re human. We make mistakes. We
mis-estimate. We call it wrong. But when a surgeon makes a bad judgment call,
it’s not as simple. People get hurt. They bleed. So we struggle over every
stitch. We agonize over every suture because the snap judgments, the ones that
come to us quickly and easily without hesitation, they’re the one that haunt us
forever.
Denny: [voiceover] I believe in heaven. I also believe in
hell. I’ve never seen either, but I believe they exist. They have to exist
because without a heaven, without a hell, we’re all just headed for limbo.
CY: You've got some problems. You've got some big problems.
OH: Yeah. Yeah, I do. Will, you go out with me anyway?
CY: Yes.
“It's your call, Dr. Bailey. It's up to you. Am
I an executioner? Or am I a surgeon?” – DS
DS: If I stop this surgery, it's the same as me sticking this
scalpel into his brain. Is that what you want?
MG: Yes. That's what I want.
MB: Dr. Shepherd?
DS: Dr. Bailey.
MB: I need you to stop. I need you to put down the scalpel. This
man is trying to kill himself and, God forgive me, I need you to let him.
MB: Karev, go and get the machine.
AK: What if it's already hooked up to somebody?
AR: If that somebody has more than 16 hours to live, then we'll
unhook him.
LG: Oh my god, are you okay?
MS: No!
LG:It's bent in the middle. I think you broke it.
MS: Get Torres! Go!
OH: Yeah, that's a penile fracture.
MS: Oh, I'm going to kill myself.
DS: She's in the car, she's in the car and she won't stop crying.
CY: Did you propose?
DS: No. She went to William's execution.
MG: I know you don't understand me. I don't understand me. I
wanted to show him compassion. That's why I went. That's the reason. And it was
horrible... it was horrible.
DS: It's okay.
IS: Heaven and hell.
Denny: Yes.
IS: You're here.
Denny Yes.
IS: No... you're not here for me, you're here for me... you're
here for me.
“Stevens, I need a nod. A yawn or maybe a
little burp. Something that lets me know you're awake and capable of keeping
this boy alive.” – MB
Denny: [voiceover] Heaven, hell, limbo, no one really
knows where we’re going or what’s waiting for us when we get there. But the one
thing we can say for sure, with absolute certainty, that’s there are moments
that take us to another place, moments of heaven on earth. And maybe for now,
that’s all we need to know.
Meredith: [voiceover] Any first year med student knows that
an increase heart rate is a sign of trouble. A racing heart can indicate
anything from a panic disorder to something much, much more serious. A heart
that flutters, or one that skips a beat, could be a sign of secret affliction
or it could indicate romance which is the biggest trouble of all.
“Alone people don't like to hear about the
together people...It's just sort of mean. It's sort of like bringing a 6-pack
to an AA meeting.” – CT
DS: She said a thing about
babies. Like babies are a totally ordinary idea. She's not afraid, she's ready.
MS: When are you gonna do it?
RW: Do what?
MS: Shepherd's proposing.
RW: No kidding? Outstanding! How're you gonna do it?
DS: I don't know. Just decided.
OH: Morning.
MS: Shepherd's proposing.
OH: Congratulations, that's a big step.
DS: Thank you very much. :[to Mark] You just gonna tell everybody now?
MS: You need advice. Hunt, you ever proposed before?
OH: Uh sorry I'm...not the guy to ask. When are you gonna do it?
[Meredith approaches]
DS: Well more importantly how am I gonna do it?
MS: :[sees Meredith, coughs] So, what do you use, like a twist drill for that?
[Richard leaves]
DS: Well not if you don't want a partial, pridal hematoma!
[Derek, Mark and Owen do big fake laugh]
MG: [confused] Hi... [walks
away]
CT: You're an idiot. What is your problem?
MS: He is proposing to her. That makes Little Her, his little
sister. And I can't sleep with any more sisters. And she's young. And I'm her
boss.
CT: And I'm celibate.
MG: Hey, um did you eat? Let me change, I'll come with you.
DS: No, no, no, I can't. I have to um, work.
MG: Ok, listen. You have been acting like a basket case ever since
I dropped that stupid little comment about babies. And I'm glad I dropped it,
because if you don't want babies, or you don't want babies with me and my
crappy DNA... just say so! You don't have to avoid me. You don't have to make
up lame excuses about work.
DS: Meredith, I want your crappy babies.
MG: Hah, you do?
DS: All of them.
MG: Ok, do you wanna eat?
DS: No...I... I... I have to work.
MG: Derek is a.... What are you doing?
CY: I don't know, I just... Staying here.
MG: Ok... goodnight.
CY: He's planning to propose.
MG: Wh... What?
CY: The Chief. Your Mother writes... he ah, told her he would
leave Adele. Come back, get on one knee and propose, but, I don't think he ever
did.
MG: That's sad.
CY: Is it?
MG: Or romantic.
DS: Well she built the house of candles...
CY: Yeah, for you. She built you a house of candles 'cause you
like that sort of thing, she doesn't.
DS: Ok, thanks.
DS: Pregnancy induced hypertension?
MG: Yeah, I have to get her BP down before it starts to affect the
baby.
DS:Nice couple, they'll have cute kids.
MG: Yeah, Not as cute as ours. But, cute. .... What?
DS: [smiles] Nothing.
MS: It's dangerous. People who carry guns are more likely to fire
them.
DS: Oh I'm ready to fire it. That's not the problem, she's the
problem. She spooks easy. I have to fire at the right time, the right way.
Otherwise, she'll panic and bolt. She's not ready. You think she's ready?
MS: I dunno. More importantly, if you don't know you shouldn't do
anything until you do know.
MG: Maybe he just doesn't want my babies?
LG: No... that, that's not it.
MG: Yeah, because my babies will have Alzheimer's, and suicidal
tendencies, and split ends.
CY: You might have something there.
Patient: No, I really don't think you do though.
CY: Who are you?
Meredith: [voiceover] It seems we have no control what so
ever over our own hearts. Condition can change without warning. Romance can
make the heart pound just like panic can. And panic can make it stop cold in
your chest. It’s no wonder doctors spend so much time to keep the heart stable,
to keep it slow, steady, regular to stop the heart from pounding out of your
chest from the dread of something terrible or the anticipation or something
else entirely.
Meredith: [voiceover] Every patient’s story starts the same
way. It starts with them being fine, it starts in the before. They cling to
this moment, this memory of being fine, this before, as though talking about it
may somehow bring it back. But what they don’t realise is that they’re talking
about it to us, their doctors and that means there’s no going back. By the time
they see us, they’re already in the after. And while every patient’s story
starts the same way, how the story ends depends on us, on how well we diagnose and
treat. We know the story hinges on us and we all want to be the hero.
MG: We're not 25, sleeping our way through Europe anymore.
Sadie: We could though. Think about it. We could get on a plane
tonight, we could...
MG: No. NO! I can't. I have to work. I can't just...
Sadie: Wow... You know they've sucked the life right out of you. The
Meredith I used to know...
MG: Is right here. I'm here. I just don't wanna sleep my way
through Europe anymore. I wanna be here. I wanna be here!
LG: Wait, what's the prize?
RW: You get to scrub in on Shepherd's craniotomy.
LG: Yeah!
RW: And hold the doomsday sucker.
LG: What's the doomsday sucker?
IS: Doomsday sucker?
RW: It's just a really big sucker.
LG: Yeah!
MG: What happened?
Sadie: I quit. O'malley's a little narc. I'd rather be deemed a
quitter than a cheater.
MG: Did you cheat your way into the program?
Sadie: I said I'm not book smart. You know that. I learn on my feet.
I thought if I came to where you were, we... you could...
MG: Pull you through?
Sadie: We've seen each other through a lot.
MG: You know Addison's brother probably isn't going to make it.
His cysts are inoperable.
CY: Worms in the brain. Not how you wanna go.
AM: Okay. I need to be distracted. Someone talk about something
other than what's going on with my brother right now.
CT: Er, Mark is good at talking about himself.
“I call her, alright. I call my mother, once a
week. I haven't told her I'm back, she thinks I'm calling from ... I keep the
conversation short because I can't bear for her to know that the son she sent
off to war is gone. He's gone. And if I just got in my car and drove the six
miles to see her, she'd be so ... sad. And she would look at me in the same way
Beth does, now. Like I'm not there. The only time I don't feel like a ghost is
when you look at me, because when you look at me, you see me. You see me. This
is me. This is me. Please, Cristina, see me. See me.” – OH
“Does anyone know the medical term for worms in
the brain?” – RW
MB: [watching Addison sit in the chapel] What's she doing?
RW: It
looks like she's praying.
Sam: Mmm no. Addie doesn't
pray.
CT: What's she doing?
Naomi: Uhh, she's praying.
CT: :[she laughs] Addison doesn't pray. She must be hiding.
AM: I can hear you! And I'm
not hiding, I'm trying to pray. But I don't know how to pray because we only go
to church on Christmas.
CT: You guys go, I got this. :[sits next to Addison]
AM: I have no cloud with God. God doesn't even know who I am.
Which sucks because I could...I could use some help.
CT: Dear God, I need your guidance. I kissed a peds surgeon.
AM: You kissed a peds surgeon?
CT: I never thought I'd end up with a woman, God, but, I mean not
until lately, but that's not the problem. The problem is the peds thing. She's,
she`s perky... and has butterflies on her scrub cap. But she's also hot...
really hot. So, help me get over the butterflies. Amen. You`re amazing doctor,
you save babies. God knows who you are.
AM: Do you really believe in all this? In God?
CT: Sometimes. Most of the time. When it counts.
Meredith: [voiceover] There’s this thing that happens when
people find out you’re a doctor. They stop seeing you as a person and begin to
see you something bigger than you are. They have to see us that way, as gods,
otherwise we’re just like everyone else, unsure, flawed, normal. So we act
strong, we remain stoic. We hide the fact that we’re all too human.
“I am Dr. Bailey! I am better than fine.” – MB
Meredith: [voiceover] Patients see us as gods or they see us
as monsters. But the fact is, we’re just people. We screw up, either way. Even
the best of us, have our off days. Still we move forward. We don’t rest our
laurels or celebrate the lives we’ve saved in the past. Because there’s always
some other patient that needs our help. So we force ourselves to keep trying,
to keep learning. In the hope that, maybe, someday we’ll come just a little bit
closer to the gods our patients need us to be.
Meredith: [voiceover] Every surgeon I know has, a shadow. A
dark cloud of fear and that follows even the best of us into the OR. We pretend
the shadow isn’t there hoping that if we save more lives, master harder
techniques, run faster and farther it will get tired and give up the chase but
like they say... you can’t outrun your shadow.
MG: How'd it go with the lawyers?
DS: They told me my death
rate. [looks at a small pile] These are the people I saved. [looks
at a big pile] These
are the people I killed.
MG: Okay. Well most of those people were terminal when they came
to you. You were their last chance, and you take on impossible cases. Look at
the clinical trial.
DS: It's just so many people. More than Dahmer, Manson, and Bundy combined.
MG: You're not looking at the big picture.
DS: [points
to the big stack of files] This is the big
picture.
[Derek is sitting on the couch eating cereal, in a mess of empty
containers, and papers. They are all looking at him from the hallway]
AK: Dude, he's fried.
MG: He is not fried. He lost a patient and got hit with a lawsuit
all in the all in one week. He just needs time.
AK: He's been sitting there for 3 days. The sofa cushions are
gonna start bonding to his ass, and he's eating all of my cereal.
IS: He's taking stock.
Something huge and life-altering happened to him, and he's taking stock,
figuring out his next move. We shouldn't judge him, we shoudn't rush him.
AK: Whatever. Sylvia Plath's picking out all of the marshmallows.
They're the best part!
LG: And I'm pretty sure
that he's sitting on me keys. I'd ask him to move but he looks so... comfy.
MG: Oh, you guys are cowards. (walks over to Derek) Hey. You're
eating, that's good. Appetite is good. You know what else is good? Showering,
cleansing, water. Are you thinking that you'll shower, maybe go into the
hospital?
DS: I have to, for the deposition. I have to go and explain in
detail how I killed a man's pregnant wife.
MG: That's good. I-I mean, not the k-killing part but the.. I.. I
think you'll feel better once... you go to... work. [Derek sighs and gets up off the sofa, and walks over to the
others and slams the cereal box in Alex's chest] He'll be fine.
IS: Look at you, with your stethoscope around your neck. Charting.
I can totally see you in 10 years. A little salt and pepper in your hair, a big
shot attending. You're gonna be a rock star Alex.
AK: What is this?
IS: What? I can't fantasize about my boyfriend and his bright,
bright future?
AK: Shut up.
MS: Have you heard of a... Doctor Nelson in Neuro?
CT: Oh yeah. Haha, shadow Shepherd.
MS: Shadow Shepherd?
CT: Yeah, he's a solid surgeon, but sort of the JV player to
Shepherd's Varsity. The B team to Shepherd's A. The brick layer to Shepherd's
architect.
MS: I get it! Just 'cause a guy doesn't publish fancy clinical
trials, or takes on flashy surgeries, or has creepy perfect hair, he's less of
a man?
CT: Kinda.
MG: I know there's a ring.
DS: What?
MG: The Chief told me. I know there's a ring.
DS: You want the ring? Here's your ring. [Smacks it with his baseball bat into the distance, throws the bat
on the ground and walks into the trailer]
MG: Is that the best you've got? 'Cause I'm not bailing, we're in
this together.
DS: [yelling] GO HOME MEREDITH!
MG: [about
Derek] And he
just walked out. Without saying a word, he just walked out!
CY: Hunt won't even look at
me, since he went all Apocalypse Now on me this morning.
MG: He had to get all scalpel happy up in that patients brain, and
now he can't face it!
CY: He thinks I'm what? This wilting flower? Well guess what, I'm
the strong one.
MG: Oh my god! I'm the strong one.
CY: You see, if I had that stomach cancer gene, I would get that
gastrectomy no problem. I face things, I don't walk away.
MG: Derek walks away. Maybe walking away is the answer?
CY: See it's not emotional, it's science. You have a problem,
don't ignore it.
MG: Well, sometimes if you have to pee and you ignore it, it does
go away.
IS: [laughs] You guys are hilarious! I mean do you even know what she just
said? Or what she just said? [Meredith
and Cristina look at each other] I can
totally see you guys in 50 years, at a nursing home, just talking at each other
with your hearing aids off. [laughs] Hi-larious! Ah, I love lunch.
MG: Oh, Ok. So you're just quitting?
DS: You should understand better than anybody else. You wrote the
book on quitting. Running, hiding, you've written a lot of books Meredith.
MG: That may be true. But I'm here now.
DS: Oh, hmm, you're here now? Haha. You've wanted me out since the
day I moved in.
MG: That is not true.
DS: Because you're incapable of anything that resembles
commitment. You lied to me, you said you were healthy. That you were healed. There's
no fixing you, you're a lemon.
LG: Yes, the odds are against us. I'm a one woman wrecking ball,
all I do is break you. Your hand, your penis, your relationships, your life.
I'd say our survival rate is about 3 percent. And that's, that's, that's bad.
But, it's not nothing. And I don't think we should give up on this. At least
not yet because...[Mark puts his finger to Lexie's lips]
Okay.
MS: You think you broke me little Grey? You're the one that put me
back together.
AK: Iz! they said I could do the distal anastomosis on my own.
IS: That's awesome!
AK: That's crazy. They just told me I could be the future of this
hospital. That I'm the resident to watch. And that's... I mean... I'm not the
kinda guy who. I don't rise okay, I sink to the bottom. And now I'm getting all
this, all this respect. And you... you gotta, you gotta stop wasting all your
time with this patient X crap.
LG: We have a diagnosis.
IS: Go ahead doctor Grey.
LG: Patient X. An elevated LDH was our only clue. And then we
found out that she had enlarged lymph nodes, and a suspicious mole which was
biopsied. Meanwhile, this MRI with contrasts showed a MET on her right temporal
lobe. The biopsy reveled dividing cells. That coupled with further staging
tests, lead to our final diagnosis of Metastatic Melanoma, with MET's to the
liver, skin and brain.
IS: Your prognosis?
LG: With chemo, and radiation, um, a few months.
Intern: At best, girls pretty much toast.
Intern: Survival rate's 5 percent. If I were her, I'd go on a really
good vacation.
LG: I learned a lot today. Diagnosing a patient from beginning to
end. So, thank you for teaching us.
IS: What would you say? To patient X. How would you... How would
you break the news?
LG: Um, I would say that I was very sorry, and that there were support
groups. Th... I ... I don't know. What do you say to somebody whose, who's
gonna...
IS: You say, they have a choice. They can runaway and hide from
it, or they can face it. You say they need to be around the people who love
them, because it's gonna be the toughest fight of their life, and no one should
have to do it alone. And then you give them the odds. And even though a 5
percent survival rate is bad, it's really bad. You say.... you say....
LG: Screw the odds! People die of the hiccups. My mother died of
the hiccups. Survival rate for that is what... 100 percent? The odds are that
she should be alive right now. The odds are... The odds are crap! So people
should face it and they should fight. Maybe not those words.
IS: No. Exactly those words. Thank you Dr. Grey.
IS: Maybe Cristina's right. Maybe trying to teach the interns is
pointless.
GO: Please, don't listen to Cristina. She thinks just because
you'd rather teach then take out a gall bladder that you're the new me.
IS: Haha, O'Malley the sequel.
GO: O'Malley 2.0
Meredith: [voiceover] Every surgeon has a shadow. And the
only way to get rid of a shadow is to turn off the lights, to stop running from
the darkness and face what you fear, head on.
Meredith: [voiceover] Surgeons aren’t known for being warm
and cuddly. They’re arrogant, impatient, mean as often as not. You’d think they
wouldn’t have friends 'cuz who could stand them? But surgeons, are like a bad
cold. Nasty, but persistent. Surgeons: nasty, aggressive, unstoppable, just the
kind of people you want on your side when you’re really screwed.
DS: Thanks for coming.
MG: Thanks for calling.
DS: I love you.
MG: I know.
DS: Would you still love me if I wasn't a
surgeon?
MG: No. No... Because Izzie has skin
cancer that's spread to her brain. And you're one of about 20 people in the
world who can save her. And I don't know if I could respect somebody who could
walk away from a gift like that. So please don't. Here are her scans. It's
pretty bad.
CY: I told Alex, and Bailey, and they're telling Meredith and
George.
IS: Cristina...
CY: No, I couldn't do my job. I think you came to me for help, and
that's what I did. Because sometimes we win Izzie, and I want you to fight. Ok.
You know, for whatever that's worth. I want you to fight.
IS: Thank you.
DS: I took a pregnant woman in for a
simple surgery, and I botched it. That is on me. I should feel badly about
that. And you, you should feel badly that while I was out here, you sent
Meredith out here expecting a ring. Why would you do that? Why in gods name,
would you do that?
RW: I was trying to
help. She didn't wanna come. She wanted to leave you out here alone, I was
trying to help Derek.
DS: You were
trying to help yourself. Not me. Yourself! I hit the ring in the woods. In the
woods. You destroyed me.
MB: Ah, Chief?
RW: Dr. Bailey.
MB: How's your mood?
RW: Meager. Anxious. I'm excited about
Sloan's face transplant. I'm a little concerned about Derek Shepherd, but all
in all...
MB: Do I look like therapist?
RW: You asked.
MB: I've lost Hunt and Torres. See, I
sent them to get Shepherd and I never heard from them again. See, I was trying to solve the Shepherd situation for you,
Sir, but, It appears I've somehow made it 3 times worse. So, I'm telling you
and my next move I believe is that I'm gonna call the police. Because, I'm half
convinced they're all dead, on a spit, with a one armed man turning them into
shish kebabs. Sir. It's my mind. It just goes there.
DS: [to Richard] Get out!
RW: No.
DS: Get out, Richard! Get out!
RW: Look, I've
destroyed lives before. Several in fact, and yours is not one of them. Now, I
sent the woman you love out here to help you. I sent the woman who loves you,
out here, to bring you back to your life. If you ruin it with her, that's on
you. I don't accept it. You're scared, you're drunk. You don't know which way
is up. You threw a punch at your best friend, and you threw a ring at Meredith,
and now you wanna throw me out. I'm not accepting it. Because, I'm older than
you, and I've been where you are. You've been drunk for a few days, I was drunk
for years. And I know you're gonna need at least one friend when you decide to
come out of that hole you're digging. I hope you come out of it soon, and I'll
be here when you do.
DS: I don't think I can get her back.
RW: Did you call her?
DS: What am I
going to say?
RW: I had an affair for years and when Adele found out somehow
she... She took me back... you can make your way back from anything.
GO: [to Pierce, Megan and Steve] This is year one of
your residency. You turn on each other now, you're not gonna make it.
MG: Okay,
here's what's gonna happen. All of you are going to go and find the sense that
the good lord gave you, and never behave like this within the four walls of
this hospital ever again. You are doctors. Pierce, get an ice pack, and put it
on that oozing, disgusting, mess of an eye. And Steve, go to the pit, and get
that unsanitary, bloody hand x-rayed and stitched. And Megan, you should go to
OB, because yes, you are pregnant.
GO: That was very Bailey.
Kendall: [about
the interns] I'm
sorry. I'm trying to listen but are they supposed to look like that?
MG: Like what?
Kendall: The bleeding and the shiner and that one looks like she's
suicidal. They're supposed to be doctors?
GO: We're going to reserve judgment on that right now.
OH: I was a second year resident, MVC rolls in. Parents were in
the front seat. Three kids in the back. Kids were okay, Mom and Dad were a
little banged up but nothing terrible. They were talking, laughing in the ER.
Turns out both parents had massive internal injuries. I operated on them both
that night, hours. I lost them both. Now if I'd moved faster, if I'd rushed
them to CT. If I'd known how bad off they were sooner... but I didn't. The
eldest kid was 9. When I came out to tell them about their Dad, he was trying
to console the 3 year old and the 5 year old about their Mother. I'll never get
that image out of my head. This, this 9 year old boy trying to hold these two
little ones. His arms just not big enough. I don't know how I came back the
next day. I think part of me never did.
DS: I'm surprised you
didn't talk about Iraq.
OH: I don't talk about Iraq. What I... what my point was, I kept,
you know I... I went back. I showed up. I showed up for work, you know.
DS: You get dead inside.
You get dead inside because if you actually felt it. If you let yourself feel
that. No way you're going back. No way.
MG: [to Steve and Megan] Whatever
it is the two of you have going on, it stops, now.
Steve: I didn't ...
GO: I don't think you should talk when she's talking.
MG: You are scaring the
patients. And you're making this hospital look ridiculous and you're making us
look incompetent.
Steve: No, but we have ...
GO: That's not a good idea.
MG: Just stay away from
each other. So much as a tear or a glance at each other's direction and it's
over.
Megan: I don't understand ...
MG: No, no, no. Don't talk
while I'm talking. Now just get out. Go. (they walk away) Not together. [to George] Oh,
that felt good.
MB: What in God's name is
going on?
MG: It's a personal issue,
and we are just trying to give them their privacy.
MB: Do you think for a
second I wanted to get involved with your little intern dramas?
GO: We were not this bad.
MB: Oh, getting married in
Vegas. Shacking up with attendings, cutting LVAD wires. You don't have to like
it, but you have to manage it.
MG: Oh, we've got it under
control.
Intern: [runs
down stairs crying] Wait, I
love you Megan!
“Look, I'm sorry about your patient. I know how
hard it can be. I, I had a patient a couple of years ago, a young guy, 50
maybe. Simple knee replacement. He was post op, he was fine. I even told his
wife she could go and get him lunch. I mean, it was a simple knee replacement,
it was nothing. But, ah, he'd been getting short of breath so I'd put him on blood
thinners for a post surgical PE. And, ah, It wasn't until he was vomiting up
dark red blood, looking me in the eye, telling me that he was dying... that I
figured it out. That I was wrong. That it wasn't a PE, he was bleeding
internally. It wouldn't have been fatal, but the blood thinners. God, I will
never forget the look on his wife's face. When she came back with that sandwich
in her hand, asking me why her husband wasn't in his room anymore.” – CT [to Derek]
MB: O'Malley, Grey, I need you on pre ops
and post ops.
MG: But, there's the biggest surgery in
the world happening here today.
MB: Yes, and half our attendings are
involved. Which is why we need strong residents on pre ops and post ops. Yang,
you're with me today. Your moving to the big leagues.
MG: What?
GO: She gets a solo?
CY: Today?
MB: Nice old lady with a hernia. You're
gonna fix it.
MG: Congratulations. I know I should seem
more enthusiastic, but I'm not that big a person.
CY: Don't worry about
it.
GO: Is it wrong to have
hatred in your heart?
MB: He can't lose Shepherd. I mean, I'd
go talk some sense into him but, I've got too much on my plate.
CT: Have you tried
calling him?
MB: About a hundred times.
CT: No.... No... Oh
you, you want me to go to the woods? No. Ah, I don't do woods. The woods are
dirty, and there are many many bugs. What am I gonna say to the guy? I barely
know him.
MB: You don't have to know him, you're
both surgeons. You've been through the same war. Look, just remind him that
we've all been there, we all came back.
CT: You're kind of a
bully, you know that?
MB: Wouldn't do it if it didn't work so
well.
[Izzie and Cristina are looking over research for Izzy's tumor.
When Alex comes in, they quickly hide it]
AK: What are you hiding?
IS: Ah, nothing. It's just work stuff.
AK: What is that? A cool surgery?
IS: No. It's nothing. It's nothing.
AK: Well, whatever it is they're gonna pick me. I already flew
solo. You're still on training wheels.
GO: [about their interns] What the heck do we do with them?
MG: Can we shove them in a locker?
GO: I guess we should
just talk to them.
MG: No. We're professionals, and that's
clearly personal. Besides, we'll just waste time and we'll never get to see the
solo surgery, or the face transplant.
GO: Oh, that's a, yeah
that's a good point. I guess, well, we should, we should just ignore it then.
MG: Yeah, we should just ignore it. It's
the professional thing to do.
GO: Yeah, professionally ignoring them.
MG: It's the not knowing that does it.
Not knowing if he's ok. Not knowing if he's coming back. Maybe I've just been
dumped. I mean, It's not knowing if I'm single that makes me wanna throw up all
day long. You are not listening to me are you?
CY: Ah. Sorry.
MG: No,no. That's okay, I get it. You've
got the solo surgery and GI Joe. It's a charmed life. You don't have time for
me.
CY: I have not had GI
Joe. We've kissed a couple of times. It's like friends with benefits, without
the benefits.
MG: Still no sex?
CY: Mmm mmm, not a charmed life.
OH: People
don't really say no to you, do they?
MB: Not when I say
"please." [louder] I'm saying please.
Meredith: [voiceover] Practicing medicine doesn’t lend
itself well to the making of friends. Maybe because life and mortality are in
our faces all the time. Maybe because in staring down death everyday, we’re
forced to know that life, every minute is borrowed time. And each person, we
let ourselves care about is just one more loss somewhere down the line. For
this reason, I know some doctors who just don’t bother making friends at all.
But the rest of us, we make it our job to move that line. To push each loss as
far away as we can.
Alex: [voiceover] Surgeons are all messed up. We’re
butchers, messed up knife happy butchers. We cut people up, we move on.
Patients die on our watch, we move on. We cause trauma, we suffer trauma. We
don’t have time to worry about all the blood and death and crap it really makes
us feel.
RW: Wait.
Um. Wait. No. You can’t take that one.
MG: Why
not?
RW: I said don't take it.
MG: I will take the elevator I want to take.
[Chief blocks elevator door. Door closes and Meredith presses the
button for a new elevator. Other elevator door opens.]
RW: Well go on.
DS: Hey! Come on in. This
is a CT of Katie Bryce. 15 year old female severed aneurysm.
MG: From a fall during rhythmic gymnastics, I remember.
DS: It was the first surgery we ever scrubbed in together on
right? Our first save. Right here is a cerebral cyst. Tough save, but we did
it. I kissed you in the stairwell after the surgery. And this right here is
where Dr. Bailey kicked you out of the surgery because she caught us in your
driveway in my car. And right here, this was a 7 hour craniotomy and you held
the clamp the entire time, never flinched. That’s when I knew you were going to
be an incredible surgeon. Beth Monroe, made our clinical trial a success by
surviving. You talked me into putting her under. That’s when I knew I needed
you. And this is today. The post op head CT of Izzie Stevens. See that, right
there? Tumor free. Because of you. You got me into the OR. If there’s a crisis
you don’t freeze. You move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward.
Because you’ve seen worse. You’ve survived worse. And you know we’ll survive
too. You say you’re dark and twisty. It’s not a flaw. It’s a strength. It makes
you who you are. I’m not going to get down on one knee. I’m not going to ask a
question. I love you Meredith Grey. And I want to spend the rest of my life
with you.
MG: And I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
MG: I'm engaged.
CY: I broke up with Owen
CY: Izzie's surgery went well.
OH: Ok, that's good. I wish this could work. That it could be,
that we could be...
CY: Me too.
OH: Can I, can I hold you?
RW: Surgery went well today.
DS: Mmmm.
RW: Shouldn't you and Meredith be out celebrating or something?
DS: She turned me down twice. She says she understands, she
forgives me for what happened in the woods, but...
RW: So you showed her your dark side. Meredith never struck me as
a woman afraid of the dark.
DS: Well, I don't know.
RW: Do you know it was Meredith's idea to ask Izzie if she wanted
to harvest her eggs? So Izzie could have a chance at the future she wanted. A
future Derek. She was confident that you'd succeed today. Meredith believes in
you.
“She's fine. Your friend is just fine, no thanks to any of
you. Tomorrow, do better.” – MB
MG: I'm worried about you.
CY: Meredith.
MG: Choking.
CY: Stop.
MG: It's unacceptable.
CY: Back off.
MG: Hands around the neck.
CY: Ring thrown in your face.
DS: We'll see you soon Dr.
Stevens.
IS: I hope so.
MB: Know so.
IS: Dr Bailey if something goes wrong...
MB: It won’t.
IS: The scarf, I made it for you.
DS: It's a beautiful night
to save lives. Let's get started.
CT: I wished Izzie Stevens would die. I wished her dead every day,
of every week, for I don't even know how long. I woke up every morning, wishing
Izzie Stevens would die, and now... What kind of person wishes someone would
die? What kind of doctor wishes, knowing how things happen. What kind of doctor
wishes...
AR: Are you in here, right now, praying for Izzie to die?
CT: No. I'm praying for her to live.
CY: I haven't seen you all day.
OH: What if I hadn't woken up? I can't even remember what
happened. It's gone. I have no memory, no way to... I would never hurt you,
ever. But I did. My hands just... like how could... how could my own two hands
be capable... I can't do this. Cristina... I can't...We can't do this... we
need to stop seeing each other.
CY: But you did wake up. Stop blaming yourself for something that
is out of your control.
OH: We have to stop seeing each other.
CY: Why?
OH: I almost
CY: Almost what? I told you I know my limits. Let me decide what I
can handle
AK: The Chief send you in here?
MG: Nope. I offered to come in. In case you needed to talk.
AK: Hah, you think talking will help? You think a dixie cup full
of my swimmers will make everything ok? It's crap. This is crap! You just can't
go messing with peoples heads like that. Even if she freezes the embryo's do you
think, you think we'll get a chance to use them? You think she'll still be
here? YOU THINK SHE'LL SURVIVE ALL THIS? You think... I think...She told me...
she told me she was seeing a ghost ok. And I'm so used to all the crazy chicks
in my life, that I didn't even... I'm a doctor. A DOCTOR! And I didn't even
think to... and now she's... this is wrong. This isn't how it's supposed to
happen.
MG: I know.
AK: It's crap!
MG: I know.
AK: I hate this.
MG: I know.
AK: This isn't... this isn't how we were supposed... this isn't
how I wanted to do this. This isn't how Izzie and I were supposed to make a
baby.
DS: You know they're doing tests that show faltered brain anatomy
in patients with PTSD. They're actually getting close to understanding the
physical side of the psychological trauma. It's amazing what you can see with
an MRI.
OH: What did Meredith tell you about last night? What did she say?
DS: Post traumatic stress is a real injury Owen. It can be healed.
There are resources, MED centres, therapy. You shouldn't try an handle this on
your own.
CY: Swinder has no vision.
MG: He wrapped his hands around your throat this morning and you're
pretending like nothing happened.
CY: Just focus on Izzie.
MG: Hunt literally tried to kill you. He's barely back from Iraq,
it's obvious he has issues. That doesn't mean that you have to stand by and...
CY: So like if he had a heart attack, or a stroke or lost a leg
would you walk away? So how is it any more acceptable that I walk away from
this? He's wounded. He has war wounds Meredith. It's not cut and dry. And it is
not as bad as you think it is.
“Ah, you three. Ok. Yeah, I understand why
you're here. I know you wanna help, but I will be the resident on her case
today. I will be prepping her for surgery, and if you are going into that
hospital room today you will do so as her friends. Izzie needs her people
around her. She needs you to tell her everything will be fine, she needs you to
hold her hand. She needs you, not more doctors. Understood?” – MB
MG: You're wearing a turtle neck under your scrubs. It's ugly. Not
as ugly as the fact that you hugged him. You hugged him.
CY: I get it. I hear you. Let's move on.
MG: Turtle necks aren't ok. You're not ok, and your boyfriends not
ok.
AK: Is your boyfriend ok?
MG: What?
CY: Pardon?
AK: To be cutting into brains today. Is he ok to be back?
MG: Yes. Of course. Derek is fine.
AK: I was there for his carnage in the OR remember? This isn't
just any patient today, this is Izzie.
OH: [Because
of a nightmare he was acting out, he was strangling Cristina] I am so sorry. I don't know what I'm, I'm... I don't know... I'm
sorry.
CY: Look at me.
OH: I'm sorry.
CY: Look at me. I'm fine. See? It's ok, you were asleep. It's ok.
Ok? It's ok.
OH: I'm sorry. [begins
to cry]
CY: It's ok. It's ok. I know. It's ok. You were asleep. It's ok.
Ok? It's ok.
Alex: [voiceover]: Doesn’t matter how tough we are, trauma always
leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives, trauma messes
everybody up, but maybe that’s the point. All the pain and the fear and the
crap. Maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward. It’s
what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up, before we can step up.
Meredith: [voiceover] Defeat isn’t an option. Not for
surgeons. We don’t back away from the table til the last breaths long gone.
Terminals a challenge, life threatening's what gets us out of bed in the
morning. We’re not easily intimidated, we don’t flinch, we don’t back down and
we certainly don’t surrender, not at work anyway.
MG: So I guess a big wedding won't be that bad.
LG: I'm just sad 'cause I didn't get a chance to see you in the
actual dress.
MG: You will.
LG: How? I mean, if Derek and Mark don't make up how...
MG: You're my sister Lexie. You're in the wedding.
LG: Oh my God. I'm gonna be a bridesmaid? Oh my God, I don't know
what to say.
MG: Well, you should wait and see what Izzie's picked out for you
to wear. Then you'll have plenty to say. [Mark
and Der walk in... together]
DS: Do you want one?
MS: So much. We can still catch the last half of the game.
DS: Yeah, that's what I was thinking. [Mer and Lexie look on dumbfounded]
MG: You can stop eating now.
LG: Oh thank God!
MB: Is there anything else you need before I go?
AR: No. You wanna sit a while?
MB: No, I do not want to sit. I've been sitting and lying down all
day.
AR: Dr. Bailey.
MB: Holding a child. If I wanted to spend the day holding a child,
I would have stayed home to hold my own child. I didn't do a single medical
thing today. I didn't even put a band aid on a patient. I'm... I'm just tired.
I'm done.
AR: Are you gonna tell your husband?
MB: What would I tell him?
AR: That it's more than just cutting. Peds is more than just
cutting. And, what you did today was heroic, and you know it.
MB: Ok. Maybe I'll tell him that.
OH: I jumped. In front of her car. And she was just driving to the
bank.
Dr. Wyatt: Are you talking about Cristina?
OH: I jumped in front of her. I knew, I knew I wasn't together. I
knew no good for her, or for anyone. And I wrecked her. And that is
unforgivable. I don't forgive myself for that. I can't forgive myself for that.
And I feel shameful about that. That is what I fell today. Shame.
Dr. Wyatt: Good. That's a start.
OH: How is that a start?
Dr. Wyatt: You named it. The feeling. You have to know
what it is, before you can start to navigate to somewhere better.
MG: Ok, before you guys go in there and start cutting on this
patient you need to apologize to each other. If not for the patient, for me.
Or, for Lexie. Look at her! Her face is breaking out, her ass is humungous.
LG: It's true, I had to get the scrubs with the elastic waist
band.
MG: If you don't apologize right now, she's not scrubbing in.
LG: I won't, and you can't make me! [shoves another cookie into
her mouth] This should be a joyful time. Your best friends getting married, you
should be the best man.
DS: The Chief will be my best man.
MG: What?
LG: Is my ass really that...
MG: Lexie, would you excuse us please? [Lexie leaves] The Chief?
DS: The best man is my choice. When are you gonna let go of the
grudge you have against the Chief?
MG: Derek, the man had an affair with my mother. Broke up my
parents' marriage, and basically destroyed my childhood. Meanwhile, you've been
best friend with Mark for 20 years, and you're willing to throw all that away
over nothing. So, don't talk to me about holding grudges. I'll get over mine
when you get over yours.
AK: I got you the cheeseburger you ordered from Joe's. Are you
sure about this?
CY: Are you really ok? Not feeling nauseous?
IS: No. I feel good, I feel fine. See.
LG: Hi. Oh, french fries! God, I love french fries.
IS: Meredith, lets go!
MG: [Yells
from the bathroom] I feel
like this dress is giving me a mammogram. It's squishing my boobs!
IS: Let me see it.
MG: I'm taking it off! [Izzie
fakes that she can't breathe]
AK: Iz you ok?
LG: I think she's choking.
CY: Izzie? Let's hit her with oxygen. Izzie, Izzie! Speak to me,
can you say something? Izzie? [Mer
walks out in the wedding dress]
IS: Haha, I'm not choking. I'm joking... Hahaha.
CY: Ok, you've gotta stop doing that. 'Cause it's not funny!
IS: It got Meredith out of the bathroom so I could see her dress,
and it's gorgeous!
CY: Tell her she has to stop!
MG: Izzie!
IS: It's very romantic, it's pretty right?
LG: Pretty... [eats
another french fry]
MG: And I see you've invited more people to witness my
humiliation.
LG: No, Derek and Mark still aren't speaking to each other and
we're heading into a 6 hour surgery. So, unless I can slip this cheeseburger
into a sterile area... I'm not gonna make it! Can you please come and talk to
them?
IS: Fine,
ok, you can go. Cristina will you help her take the dress off? [Lexie steals the rest of Izzie's fries]
LG: I'll be in the scrub room.
IS: Lexie just ate all of my fries, can you please get me some
more?
AK: Nice. The IL2 isn't affecting you at all. [Alex leaves and Izzie throws up]
[Callie is ranting angrily in Spanish]
MS: [Mark
grabs Callie] HEY!
Stop speaking Spanish! 'Cause I have to go to surgery in a minute, and I don't
speak Spanish.
CT: My Dad is taking me home. He's talking to the Chief, and he's
making me quit my job, and quit my relationship which he has yet to acknowledge
even exists.
MS: What are you 12? Tell him he's crazy.
CT: You don't understand. There isn't anything he hasn't done for
me. Ok. Nothing. He's paid for my college, he's paid for med school, I have a
huge trust fund because he doesn't want me to worry about anything but being a
great doctor. I mean the man has done nothing but support me his whole life.
MS: Supporting someone and respecting someone aren't the same
thing. You need to tell him that.
CT: Just so you know, I wasn't looking for a relationship. With a
he or a she. It just happened. And ah, it feels good with her. It feels easy
and ah, comfortable. I'm saying I'm happy. When have you heard me willingly
admit that?
Mr Torres: When you lived at home with your mother and
me. You were happy then.
CT: Yeah, well, I was 12. It didn't take much.
Mr Torres: You'll fly home with me today. I'll talk to
the Chief, explain the circumstances.
CT: What? No! No, Dad, No! I'm not moving back home!
Mr Torres: Don't worry everything's gonna be ok.
CT: Everything is... is ok!
DS: I didn't think you wanted to wear a wedding dress?
MG: I don't! How does he even know we're engaged?
DS: Richard's my friend. He's not the one that ordered the dress.
If you don't wanna wear a wedding dress, talk to Izzie.
MG: Oh yeah! As the chemo drips into her cancery arm. And she
looks at me with those cancery eyes. Those cancery wedding loving eyes!
DS: Be strong.
MG: We will have brides maids in pink taffeta! And you will be
wearing a top hat and a morning coat! And somebody will be singing wind beneath
my fricking wings!
DS: You want me to talk to her?
IS: Okay, I'm really glad we talked. [Derek
leaves her room]
DS: [to
Meredith] Apparently
a morning coat is non-negotiable. Also, we have to make time for ballroom
dancing lessons. [Meredith
looks at Derek and is totally freaked. He walks away dumbfounded]
CT: Run! Run for your life!
GO: What do you mean run for my life?
[Mr Torres grabs George]
MS: Woah!
CT: Oh my god, Dad!
Mr Torres: Give me one good reason I shouldn't kill you
right now!
CT: Dad! Stop it!
Mr Torres: You committed adultery.
CT: Who hasn't? I slept with him, before we were divorced. So,
technically George isn't the only one who cheated.
[Mr Torres grabs Mark]
CT: Oh god!
Mr Torres: Give me one good reason I shouldn't kill YOU
right now!
MS: Mark Sloan, pleasure to meet you.
OH: I don't feel anything
Dr. Wyatt: Nothing? No anger? Happiness? Unhappiness?
Guilt? Survivors guilt? You know it's very common with veterans.
OH: It's not about my platoon.
Dr. Wyatt: You have shoved your feelings aside for so
long. I'm asking you to claim them. And Owen, this is about your platoon.
OH: It's about the fact that I tried to choke my girlfriend to
death. What? Are you saying the way I feel about my platoon and the way I feel
about what happened with Cristina are the same? They're not the same.
Dr. Wyatt:: Well, how will you know if you can't name
those feelings?
OH: It's not what it's... It's...I don't know.
DS: You know maybe they could make you a bouquet of scalpels and
clamps.
MG: Oh, yeah, that would be fun. I think I'd have to run it by
Izzie first. [Der
sees Mark and Lexie]
DS: Yeah...
Meredith: [voiceover] To do our jobs we have to believe
defeat is not an option. That no matter how sick our patients get, there’s hope
for them. But even when our hopes give way to reality, and we finally have to
surrender to the truth, it just means we’ve lost to today’s battle, not
tomorrow’s war. Here’s the thing about surrender, once you do it, actually give
in, you forget why you were fighting in the first place.
Meredith: [voiceover] Remember when we were little and we
would accidentally bite a kid on the playground. Our teachers would go, “Say
you’re sorry”, and we would say it, but we wouldn’t mean it cause the stupid
kid we bit, totally deserved it. But as we get older, making amends isn’t so
simple. After the playground days are over you can’t just say it, you have to
mean it. Of course when you become a doctor, sorry is not a happy word. It
either means you’re dying and I can’t help. Or it means this is really going to
hurt.
CT: Come on Willow. Come
on. You lived in a tree, you crapped in a bucket for God's sake. You can do
this. [notices Arizona behind her]
AR: She crapped in a
bucket?
CT: What're you doing here?
AR: Saw it on the board.
Never seen an intramedullary rub into a femur. So, bucket?
CT: Yeah. Bucket on a pulley. She's uh, up in the tree, right? So,
she lowers the crap bucket to her friend every day, who empties it, cleans it,
puts food in it, and then sends it back up the tree.
AR: Oh now that's friendship! [both
women laugh, and then pause] You
know, they teach us in med school how not to care so much. We drape the
patients so we don't see their faces, we do a thousand little things to care a
little less. You care like crazy, and I love that. And I'll keep loving that.
Even if you decide to lie to your family.
MG: [Derek
kisses her] Hey,
so, ah, we have to move the wedding up for Izzie. She's... [shakes her head]
DS: Ok. Packing up your mom's journals?
MG: Yeah. You know, there's nothing in these for me. I keep
thinking, but I dunno. I don't wanna throw them away so I was gonna give them
to the Chief. And, he can come to the wedding. If you want. He can come.
DS: Ok.
MS: Sorry I'm late.
LG: Ah, dad, this is um, Mark Sloan. Dr. Mark Sloan. He, he's
my... ah...
Thatcher: Teacher?
LG: Haha, no. No. He's my... he's Mark.
MS: Nice to meet you Mr.
Grey. So nice to meet you.
Thatcher: Visa versa. Ah, please, here, grab a chair. [Mark takes Lexie's hand]
Mrs Stevens: Are you sure you don't want me to stay?
IS: I'm sure. I'm ok. I'll be ok.
Mrs Stevens: Well, if you're not, you know where to find
me.
IS: I love you mom. I love you so much. But, we do better loving
each other from a distance.
Mrs Stevens: You were always too good for that trailer
park. That I knew. I may not know that much, and I may not be quite as smart as
you. I always knew that.
“You keep saying you're not her father, but
you... ok... you know, since we're talking. You're the most professional guy I
know. Most level headed. Except when it comes to Meredith Grey. You gave me
hell. You know, you weren't gonna give me Chief because I was dating Meredith
Grey. You told her about the ring, you sent her out to the woods to bring me
back. That's not running a hospital. You paged her to your office to try and
address us. You paged her again today for Thatcher. You have history with her.
You keep saying you're not her father, but the way you act, you consider her
family. For what it's worth.” – DS [to
RW]
MS: Are you ok? Are you crying?
LG: My dad's here.
MS: Ok.
LG:He's here, and he's sober, and I would really like for you to
meet him.
MS: Oh. Oh, um, oh!
LG: How 'bout, how 'bout dinner? Tonight. Camparo's at 8?
MS: Ah, Lexie. Ah, dads historically do not love me. And, by that
I mean when I was a teenage, dads did not love me. That's the last time I had
to meet anyone's dad.
LG: I'm crazy about you, and I know that my dad would be too. You
have nothing to worry about.
MS: That's what you said when you told me to meet Derek. Lexie,
I'm closer to your dad's age than yours. So, I'm thinking he may not love me so
much. You know, what we have is fantastic. Why don't we just keep it for us?
MS: I got you a present.
CT: I told you, you can't
give me money. Even if you are a fancy plastic surgeon. I am not your charity
case. I am not your mistress. I am your friend, your equal. So...
MS: It's not money.
CT: Oh really? 'Cause I was
just doing the poor but proud thing for show before I accepted your government
cheese.
MS: It's better than money. Wait. She fell out of a tree and broke
all her limbs.
CT: Oh, that is better.
CY: Nice work today?
Seriously?
OH: I'm sorry?
CY: 'Run to my truck.' You've got O'Malley clipping bleeders and
you're telling me to run to your truck.
OH: You know what my truck looks like. O'Malley doesn't. And that-
that run you took, it saved a guy's life.
CY: Yeah, well, all day... all day you were teaching O'Malley and
you ignored me.
OH: O'Malley wants to be a trauma surgeon. You've already declared
cardio. I didn't do anything wrong today. I treated you like I would anyone
else.
CY: No, not like anyone else. 'Take care now.' What is that? What
are you, like, you know, happy now? What- what are you? You know, just a
"choke 'em and forget 'em" kinda guy? "Hey there now. Take care
now. Nice work, Yang." What is this?
OH: It's my shrink. My shrink gave me these sentences. We- we, uh,
we came up with them together. They're all 3-word sentences so I'd have things
to say to you instead of the three words that are... that are killing me. The
three words that you know I feel but I can't say them, because it would be
cruel to say them because I am no good for you. I don't want to torture you. I
don't want to look at you longingly when I know I can't be with you. So, yeah,
I'm smiling and I'm saying 'take care now.' I'm letting you off the hook. I'm
trying. I'm trying so hard to let you off the hook. I'm trying to make it
right, what I did to you. Can't you see that? I'm just trying to make it right.
CY: Take care now.
“I know you don't like me, and you have every
right not to like me, I have abused my power but now I'm here on your turf. What
I need to say, what I need to say is, I saw what your mother was doing, I saw
how neglected you were, I saw her drive your father off and I spent a lot of
time beating myself up about that, but what does that do for you, nothing,
nothing. I wasn't your advocate, I didn't fight for you, I never stood up for
you. I let myself off the hook, I told myself I was young and I didn't know any
better, but I did know better, I wasn't much younger than you are now. I
should've fought for you Meredith, like you fought for that child today, I told
myself that I wasn't your father, that it wasn't my responsibility, that I was
right not to but in, I let myself off the hook. You were helpless, you were a
baby. A beautiful, smart, funny, little girl, and no one stood up for you. I'm
so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry.” – RW [to MG]
Meredith: [voiceover] As doctors we can’t undo our
mistakes, and we rarely forgive ourselves for them, but it’s a hazard of the
trade. But as human beings we can always try to do better, to be better, to
re-write a wrong even if it feels irreversible. Of course, “I’m sorry” doesn’t
always cut it. Maybe because we use it so many different ways: as a weapon, as
an excuse. But when we are really sorry. When we use it right. When we mean it.
When actions say what words never can. When we get it right, “I’m sorry” is
perfect. When we get it right, “I’m sorry” is redemption.
Izzie: [voiceover] You never know the biggest day of
your life is going to be the biggest. The days you think are going to be big
ones, they are never as big as you make them out to be in your head. It’s the
regular days, the ones that start out normal. Those are the days that end up
being the biggest. And today was the wedding. It was beautiful. Perfect.
MG: You wanted to see me Chief?
RW: Derek was supposed to do this but he got pulled into something
so, I said I'd give it to you.
MG: What?
RW: Your wedding present. Not from me, it's from Derek. But, I
have to oversee it.
MG: I was supposed to get him a present?
RW: Meredith...
MG: This is why weddings are so stupid. I mean, our life together
should be the present. Not some stupid... Anyway, whatever it is Chief, I don't
want it. So, tell Derek to take it back. Well, I'll tell him. I'll tell him to
take it back.
RW: He got you a colon.
MG: What?
RW: A colon. It's nonrefundable, inflamed, it's about to go under
anesthesia in OR 2. You really wanna say you don't want it?
MG: A solo surgery [smiling]
RW: Happy wedding day Meredith.
MG: Hey!
DS: Hey.
MG: You! Best wedding
present ever! And you know why?
DS: No.
MG: (kisses him) Because
now I have to go home, and put on a corset, and pantyhose, and a petticoat, and
look like one of those idiots on top of a wedding cake. And, then I have to
walk down the aisle and have everyone staring at me. But, it's ok. Because, I
got to cut someone open today from start to finish. I saved a life.
DS: Um...
MG: What?
DS: What do you say we make this day even better?
Becca: How are my friends doing? Just tell me. I can take it. I mean,
I can't... but I can. Did someone else die?
AK: Why don't you tell me your speech? Your graduation speech.
Becca: I can take it.
AK: Becca, just... just give me your speech. You worked hard on
it. So, you should do it. Right now. Come on.
Becca: [graduation
speech] Today’s
the day my life begins. Today I become a citizen of the world. Today I become a
grown up. Today I become accountable to someone other than myself and my
parents. Accountable for more than my grades. Today I become accountable to the
world, to the future, to all the possibilities life has to offer. Starting
today, my job is to show up, wide-eyed and willing and ready. For what? For anything.
For everything. To take on life. To take on love. To take on the responsibility
and possibility. Today my friends our lives begin and I for one, can’t wait.
IS: My shoes are, ah, in
the closet there. Bailey?
MB: Um, shoes, right.
IS: You're supposed to be
helping me get ready. I can still go right? I mean, the tumors not going
anywhere. So...
MB: Yeah... you can go.
IS: Ok, well... we don't
wanna be late. Bailey!
MB: Ah,
Oh, here she comes.
IS: Mer! You're supposed to
be at the church.
MG: I'm going. i just came
to say this isn't my dress.
IS: Of course it's your
dress. It's perfect. What are you talking about?
MG: No, this dress is not
for me.
IS: I don't... what? Oh
god! i knew you were gonna freak out before the wedding. Mer, Derek loves you.
Marriage is good. Tell her it's good.
MG: No, she's saying it's not her wedding dress.
[Alex walks in wearing a suit]
AK: She's right. The dress, it isn't for Meredith.
[Meredith smiles and looks between Alex and Izzie]
[IzzieSmiles in disbelief]
Minister: Dearly beloved. We are gathered here today to celebrate the
wedding of Alexander Michael Karev and Isobel Katherine Stevens. This is a
sacred right. An ancient right. As Isobel and Alex prepare to join their lives,
it is important to understand that everyone present has played a part in
shaping their lives. And, will continue to play a vital role in their
continuing future. And thus, we are here not only to witness their vows to each
other, but to bestow upon them our blessing. And, now the couple will read
their vows.
IS: Oh, we didn't write anything.
AK: No, wait. I have something I wanna say. Today's the day my
life begins. All my life I've been just me. Just a smart mouth kid. Today I
become a man. Today I become a husband. Today I become accountable to someone
other than myself. Today I become accountable to you. To our future. To all the
possibilities that a marriage has to offer. Together, no matter what happens,
I'll be ready. For anything. For everything. To take on life, to take on love.
To take on possibility and responsibility. Today Izzie Stevens, our life
together begins. And I for one can't wait.
IS: I love you. [kisses
him]
Minister: Ahem, not yet!
AK: Hurry up!
Minister: By the power vested in me, by God and the state of Washington,
I now pronounce you husband and wife.
IS: Now?
Minister: Now. [Izzie
and Alex kiss]
AK: Come on. [takes
out her hair piece, and some hair comes with it. Izzie touches and pulls more
out] Hey,
hey, it's okay. It's just hair, you don't need it.
IS: It's just gonna keep
falling out.
AK: We'll shave it off. I bet you'd look good bald anyway. Ok? [Izzie starts crying] Hey,
stop. You're beautiful. [Alex
kisses her]
IS: You never know the
biggest day of your life is the biggest day. Not until it's happening. You
don't recognize the biggest day of your life, not until you're right in the
middle of it. The day you commit to something or someone. The day you get your
heart broken. The day you meet your soul mate. The day you realize there's not
enough time, because you wanna live forever. Those are the biggest days. The
perfect days. You know?
Denny: I bet you ... you made a beautiful bride.
IS: It was a beautiful day.
AK: You put the scarf on. I told you, you don't need it. You look
gorgeous without it.
Denny: He's right.
IS: Go away now. Go away, I
wanna be alone with my husband.
AK: [Takes
off her scarf, and kisses her forehead] My wife
is hot! [Izzie
giggles and smiles]
CT: We went to a fancy restaurant! The nicest restaurant in
Seattle! The salad that I ordered, the salad cost $26.95. The wine that you ordered cost $125 a bottle. I
didn't even look at the entrees because I knew that I wasn't going to be able to
order one because I was already out 75 bucks and I don't even like salad!
And then the bill came, and you-
AR: [realizing
Callie's point] I...I
paid.
CT: Do you know what I was doing before they brought over the
check? I was counting in my head, trying to figure out how I was going to buy
food for the rest of the week if my half was 75 bucks because I don't have 75
bucks because my father disowned me. And has cleared out my bank account. I am
broke! And I am exhausted, Arizona. I'm working in the ER because I need the
money. Six people died on my watch today and I am fried. I
wanted to stay in last night. I thought-I thought that last night would be the
night for us, you know? Our night. But you wanted to go to a fancy
restaurant...and I can't do that. I can't.
Izzie: [voiceover] You never know the biggest day of
your life is your biggest day, not until it’s happening. You don’t recognize
the biggest day of your life, not until you’re right in the middle of it. The
day you commit to something or someone. The day you get your heart broken. The
day you meet your soul mate. The day you realize there’s not enough time
because you wanna live forever. Those are the biggest days. The perfect days.
You know, it was a beautiful day.
Meredith: [voiceover] When something begins, you generally
have no idea how it’s going to end. The house you’re going to sell becomes your
home, the roommates you were forced to take in become your family and the one
night stand you were determined to forget becomes the love of your life.
GO: Are you sure you want
to? Why do you want to cut off your leg just to go to the war? Don’t you have
family?
Charlie: You know what it’s like to have family who don’t know you?
Don’t get you or maybe don’t like you?
GO: Yeah, actually I have
brothers.
Charlie: Me too. So there’s that family. The guys I grew up with and
we’ve got nothing in common. And then there’s my guys in Iraq, my real family.
Whatever we got into, we’re in it together. But here, I’m alone, I’m nobody.
And I’ve tried, you know, I’ve tried fitting in here, I’ve tried being a
regular person, I’ve tried getting a job but there aren’t any. There are a lot
of thing I’ve wanted to be in my life, a lot of things that I’ve wanted to do.
But none of them is here.
“You think I don’t know that? You think I want to cut my leg
off? Of course not. Am I sure about this? No. The only think I’m sure about is
I am in hell right now. That I am sure of. I’ve lost everything, everything
I’ve worked for, everything I’ve cared about. I’ve traded in for a 6 days a
week pay pill that doesn’t even work. So don’t waste both our time to scare me
because you do not scare me Dr Torres. After everything I’ve been through
nothing scares me. So are we going to do this or not?” – Charlie,
patient
“God, it doesn't matter how good you are. Or
how hard you work. You can do all the research, you can master all the latest
techniques, I mean you can be the best. You can be the best surgeon in the
world, but your patients are still gonna die. 'Cause the next day, or the next
month, or the next year, you know they're just gonna get hit by a car. Or find
a mole on their back. There's nothing you can do about it. [turns to Owen] I don't want you to die.” – CY
MG: [teary] I always thought it would be me. I'd get Alzheimer's like my
mother and forget everyone. Lets go to city hall tomorrow. I don't wanna spend
another day not being married to you.
DS: Ok.
AK: Please.
IS: Alex.
AK: Look, you went crazy.
When Denny signed that DNR you went crazy. Is that what you want? You want me
cutting LVAD's?
IS: No.
AK: You wanna wreck my
career? 'Cause I will, I will freakin' cut LVAD's before I let you... just...
just WAIT! STOP! You don't get to quit. You don't get to quit on me. Please!
Tear it up! The DNR, tear it up! [crying]
IS: Where your eyes are
supposed to be right now, I see white sandy beaches. And there's an ocean
behind your head, and there are ghosts wandering in and out. I can't live like
this, and I cant live if something goes wrong in that surgery I don't want any
extraordinary measures taken to keep me alive. It's not what I want. I went
crazy when Denny signed the DNR because I didn't understand. I didn't
understand but now I do, and I need you to understand. I don't want you to go
crazy, I want you to have a brilliant career, and I hope that I get to be here
for that. But, if I can't I just wanna go to the other side. I don't know
what's there but it's gotta be better than hospital beds and tubes down my
throat. So please, please don't cut LVAD's. Just if it comes down to it, just
let me go. And right now, kiss me. Please, please just kiss me and close your
eyes because the beach is so distracting.
AK: [crying] Alright. [kisses her]
GO: Izzie! You paged me,
are you ok?
IS: No, I don't know what
to do. I don't know if I should have the surgery. I think I'm gonna die either
way. You gotta tell me what to do.
GO: You know what to do.
IS: No I don't. I don't.
GO: Yes, you do. You're
just scared to do it. This back and forth is just fear. You've already made the
decision. You made it. You made it the second you decided to fight this thing.
Just look, look where you started. Look where you are now. I mean, now you're
this incredible surgeon, and teacher. You're a doer, remember? You know exactly
what you have to do.
MS: I wasn't asking you to come see the
condo. I was asking you to move in with me. If that's what you want.
LG: I do.
MS: You do?
LG: Yeah. Not right away.
MS: No, of course not. Like... a year.
LG: 10 years.
MS: Alright, what now?
LG: Oh, ah, because I'll still be a
resident for like 6 more years. And then I'd wanna get my practice up and
running. So, how bout 7?
MS: How bout 5 years?
LG: I'll still be a resident.
MS: So... Stevens and Karev are
residents. Meredith's a resident. Bailey's a resident. All married or soon to
be. And happily. Or whatever.
LG: I'm sorry, are you asking me to...
marry you?
MS: No... Why? Would you?
LG: Ah, should we be having this
conversation?
MS: No. Probably not.
LG: Ok...
IS: We haven't even been
married 24 hours yet, and we've already had our first fight.
Allison: That's a good sign. Fighting leads to good make up sex. Are
you watching birds fly around my head again? Am I like totally snow white now?
IS: I just don't wanna hurt
him.
Allison: He'll come around. It might take a while. But, once that tumor
disappears, once you're back at work cutting open other people. He'll come
around. Is it humming birds at least? I really like hummingbirds.
OH: A quick consult Dr. Yang?
CY: What are you doing?
OH: I realized the reason why I haven't
told my mother I'm back is because part of me is still over there. I made a
commitment to the army that I wasn't able to fulfill. If my unit hadn't been
destroyed. I would still be there. So, no wonder I can't sleep at night, or
look my mother in the eye. No wonder you and I, we can't move forward. My work
there isn't done. Until it is, I have no business being here. So, I've decided
to go back.
CY: I have to go.
OH: Cristina
CY: What?
OH: Come on.
CY: I'm sorry, what am I supposed to say?
OH: I could use your support.
CY: You don't have it.
“My mother disappeared right in front of me. Everything she
had, everything she was. Her dignity, her memory. In the end she wasn't even my
mother anymore.” – MG
RW: Who is Santa Claus?
MB: An old white man, who lives at the north pole, and enters
peoples homes inappropriately.
RW: No. I'm Santa Claus.
MB: OH NO YOU DID NOT!
RW: Oh yes I did. The Da Vinncci SIHD surgical assistant.
MB: Tell me you didn't wait till I'd all but left the general
surgery program to buy us a Da Vinncci!
RW: Care to take it out for a spin?
MB: Santa!
OH: So ah, I had a good session with my
shrink this morning.
CY: Did you talk to her about your Mom? I
mean, have you seen your Mom yet? 'Cause she lives, you know, a few miles away
and she thinks your still in Iraq.
OH: I'm planning to see her.
CY: When?
IS: I'm not gonna make it a
big deal. [Walks
into room]] I'M A BRIDE! [everyone
claps]
AK: Izz, come on. I'm getting her a real one.
IS: I love this one. [shows
plastic ring] And,
that makes it a real one.
Allison: Can you turn him around so we can see the butt?
IS: Yes. Alex?
AK: Ha, what, are you
kidding me?
IS: [looks
away] Oh! Big
trauma just came in! [Alex
turns around giving everyone a view of his butt]
Allison: That's quality booty.
IS: Right!
Allison: Congratulations Izzie!
IS: Thank you.
Meredith: [voiceover] We spend our whole lives worrying
about the future, planning for the future, trying to predict the future, as if
figuring it out will cushion the blow. But the future is always changing. The
future is the home of our deepest fears and wildest hopes. But one thing is
certain when it finally reveals itself. The future is never the way we imagined
it.
Meredith: [voiceover] Doctors spend a lot of time focused
on the future, planning it, working toward it. But at some point you start to
realize your life is happening now. Not after med school, not after residency,
right now. This is it. It’s here. Blink and you’ll miss it.
GO: Dr. Bailey, I need to tell you
something.
MB: Not now O'Malley.
GO: No, it'll be quick 'cause I gotta get
to the OR to scrub in with the Chief. I think you're gonna be mad at first, but
I'm about to do something important. And, I'm very sure about this decision.
And, I think eventually you're gonna be proud. But you know, before that you're
probably gonna be like "What did you do!" I'm... I don't mean to
imitate you.
MB: You call that quick?
GO: I joined the Army to be a trauma
surgeon, I report for duty tomorrow.
MB: YOU DID WHAT?
GO: Yeah, that’s where I thought we'd
start.
AR: You know what, you
walk away from me again I swear I will grab you by the hair and pull hard. I
grew up with the name Arizona, I learned how to play dirty in the playground. I
stuck my neck out for you, you were my pick.
MB: And I appreciate
that, but it's a big decision.
AR: It's not, frankly.
It's the brass ring. It's the most exclusive, the most competitive and we're as
good as it gets. Nobody lands this thing and says no.
MB: My husband informed me that if I accept the peds
fellowship, if I sign on for another 2 years of training, and the hours and the
work load that come with it when I could be a general surgery attending, and
make it home for dinner. He will divorce me. It's a big decision.
AR: Maybe I don't
understand people, I don't see things. So, maybe I just don't get what's going
on with you or why you're so mad. But, I do think it's awesome. I think that
George joining the army is awesome.
AR: Um, No. You asked
me who I was. I am a person who thinks that what George is doing is dangerous,
and terrifying, and brave. He's going to serve his country. He's going to risk
his life to save the men and women who make it possible for you and I to sleep
safely in our beds. I'm a person who thinks that, that is brave. And I am a
person who stood in an airplane hanger, and watched them unload my brother's
body in a coffin. And, all we got was a flag. My brother died over there
because there weren't enough doctors Callie. So, for my money, George O'Malley
is a patriot. He's a hero, and I am grateful that he exists. So yeah, the word
I use is awesome. That's who I am.
CT: [grabs her hand] I'm
sorry.
MG: I'm getting married today. [smiles] Mmmm... it's a deal.
No muss, no fuss. Just quick and dirty.
CY: [dumbfounded] Ah, do you want me to
come?
MG: No, no. Just letting you know.
CY: Oh no, wait. Ah, ok. This is my
grocery list. It's old. This [hands Meredith blue post its] this is new. This is
my favorite pen, which is why I want it back. Borrowed. And, all of it's blue.
So, you're covered.
MG: Now, see
if we were George and Owen we would hug right now. [Meredith looks at Cristina, then shakes her head, they both go
back to work]
CT: Oh, I'm sorry. I was just looking for
Bailey. It's after 6.
MB: Yes, she scheduled an intervention so
that we could give O'Malley a piece of our minds about this idiotic army
business. Did he leave already?
RW: He never scrubbed in. He told me he
was enlisting. I sent him home, and told him to spend the day with his Mom since he was leaving so soon. He took off
this morning.
OH: Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't... I didn't
know you were here.
CY: No. Wait, wait. I... love... you.
OH: I... I love you too
CY: No. Just... I love... you. I said...
I said I love you! Me. Cristina Yang. What...You traumatized me.
OH: You know that I am... I'm so sorry
about that.
CY: Damn it. No, not about the choking.
It's like you come here, and you pull our my icicle, and you make me love you,
and I can't... I don't want to. I can't breathe... without you.
OH: You can do this Cristina. We can do
this. All you have to do is just meet me half way. All you have to do is say
yes. All you have to do is say yes.
DS: Meredith...
MG: No, you know let's go,
we gotta go. We gotta run to city hall, we'll come back, you'll check on Izzie,
we'll monitor John Doe, I'll go talk George out of joining the army!
DS: Look, we'll do this another day-
MG: There is no other day! Everyday is like this, everyday there
is a crisis, there's no time.
DS: Meredith...
MG: I love you and i do want to marry you, today. But there is no
time.
DS: [Cups
her face with his hands] Do you
have a piece of paper?
MG: For what?
DS: I want to be with you forever. And you want to be with me
forever. In order to do that, we need to make vows. A commitment. A contract. [Pause] Give
me, a piece of paper.
MG: I don't! I-I-I don't...I have post-its. [Hands him posts-its and a pen. Derek goes and sits on the bench]
DS: Okay...what do we want to promise each other?
MG: That you'll love me, even when you hate me.
DS: To love each other...even when we hate each other. [writes it down on the post-its] No
running. Ever. Nobody walks out. [Meredith
joins him on the benches] No
matter what happens.
MG: No running.
DS: What else?
MG: That we'll take care of each other even when we're old and
smelly and senile. And...if i get Alzheimer's and i forget you...
DS: I will you remind you who i am, every day. [They smile at each other] To take
care when old, senile, smelly. This...is..forever. [Derek finishes writing on the post-it, then gives it and the pen
to Meredith] Sign.
MG: This is our wedding? A post-it?
DS: Mhmm. Well, if you sign it. [Meredith
signs it happily and then hands it back to Derek]
MG: Now what?
DS: Now, I kiss the bride. [He
kisses her tenderly. Meredith's smiling as they kiss. Then Derek slowly pulls
back]
MG: Married.
DS: Married. [Derek
puts the post-it note with their vows and signatures on the back of her cubby,
then turns to her] You see
that? Plenty of time.
“It's George! It's George! It's George! John
Doe is GEORGE!” – MG
Meredith: [voiceover] Did you say it? "I love you. I
don't ever want to live without you. You changed my life." Did you say it?
Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it, but every now and then, look around.
Drink it in 'cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow.
