Meredith: [voiceover] In the
practice of medicine, change is inevitable. New surgical techniques are
created, procedures are updated, levels of expertise increase. Innovation is
everything, nothing remains the same for long. We either adapt to change, or we
get left behind.
CY: [to new interns] I have five rules. Memorize them.
Rule number one, don't bother sucking up. I already hate you, that's not gonna
change.
IS: Traumas protocol, phone lists,
pagers. The nurses will page you, you answer every page at a run. A run. That's
rule number two. [notices the interns are not following her] You're
supposed to follow me.
AK: The first shift
starts now and lasts 36 hours. You're grunts, nobodies, the bottom of the
surgical food chain. You run labs, write orders, work every second night until
you drop. And you don't complain.
MG: On call rooms.
Sleep when you can, where you can. You know, but not with anybody. Not
attendings, especially not attendings. Sleeping with attendings, not a good
idea. Where was I?
GO: Er, rule number
three. If you're sleeping, do not wake you unless the patient is actually
dying.
CY: The dying patient
better not be dead when I get there, because not only will you have killed
someone, you will have woken me for no good reason. Are we clear? [Lexie raises her hand] Yes?
LG:
That was four rules. You said five.
CY: Rule number five.
When I move, you move. [awkward pause as nobody moves] Go! [Cristina's interns scramble off]
MG: I...uhm...
DS: You're not ready for this.
MG: No.
DS: I asked for too
much.
MG: I think so.
DS: So, this is it?
MG: Yeah.
DS: We're breaking up?
MG: We're breaking up.
DS: [Walks to Meredith] We're broken up.
MG: It's done.
[They start kissing]
DS: Break-up kiss.
MG: Break-up kiss.
DS: [Removes his jacket] And some break-up
sex.
MG: Yeah, break-up sex.
MS: I really am up for a drink, you know
if you need to talk.
DS: What would I need
to talk about?
MS: Meredith. You were
lucky, man. That girl jerked you around.
DS: You have no idea
what you're talking about.
MS: Hey, I'm just...
seem like you can use a friend right about now.
DS: Meredith's mother
never wanted her and her father was never man enough to hang around. She has a
right to be damaged and us, together? It's a big step for her. Her best friend
gets left at the altar, and all she sees now is things like this, they don't
work. She panics. She wants this, but she doesn't know how to have it. And you
know what? It's not her fault. So don't ever talk to me about Meredith Grey
again because you do not know what you are talking about. And I don't want a
friend.
Meredith: [voiceover] Change; we don’t like it, we fear it,
but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change, or we get left
behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But
here's the truth: The more things change, the more they stay the same. And
sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Sometimes change, is, everything.
Meredith: [voiceover] In the hospital, we see addiction
every day. It's shocking how many kinds of addiction exist. It would be too
easy if it were just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part
of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean, we get addicted for a reason,
right? Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your
life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control.
It's the high we're chasing, the high that makes everything else fade away.
MS: Let me guess, you and Meredith are
back together and you've been up all night doing the horizontal salsa.
DS: Mambo. Horizontal mambo. Meredith and
I, we're just friends.
MS: Sexy friends.
DS: You're like the
worst, most juvenile human being I've ever met in my life.
MS: You know the first
step to recovery is admitting you have a problem?
DS: How many nurses
have you slept with this week?
MS: That's not a problem,
man. That’s an adventure
[Pager
beeps]
CY: Carnage in the pit. My day is
improving. [Cristina walks away and turns to her interns] Follow. [Interns run to follow her]
LG: We're not gonna round?
CY: Carnage trumps
rounds, Three. Write that down. Carnage always trumps rounds.
Meredith: [voiceover] The thing about addiction is it never
ends well, because eventually, whatever it is that was getting us high stops
feeling good and starts to hurt. Still, they say you don’t kick the habit until
you hit rock bottom, but how do you know when you’re there? Because no matter
how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.
Meredith: [voiceover] Doctors give patients a number of
things. We give them medicine, we give them advice, and most of the time, we
give them our undivided attention. But, by far, the hardest thing you can give
a patient is the truth. The truth is hard. The truth is awkward, and very
often, the truth hurts. I mean, people think they want the truth, but do they
really?
CY: I´m stuck in the
pit with these know-nothing interns. You'd think eventually I could catch a
break.
MG: Cristina, are we
ever gonna talk about this? The Burke thing?
CY: I´m not Izzie. I´m
not gonna lay at the bathroom floor all day. I´m gonna lay here...on the
counter.
MG: I think you should
have the hemiglossectomy.
CY: What?
MG: You take the
hemiglossectomy and I will take the ER and your interns.
CY: Are you sure?
MG: Take the surgery.
Makes you feel better and you start to regain strength. [Meredith leaves]
AK: I saw the whole thing, Yang. You can
stop pretending.
CY: Oh I´m not
pretending. I´m sad. I´m very sad. [makes a childish voice] Me so sad.
AK: Maybe I should try
it.
CY: Hey forget it. Sad
is mine. Go find your own pretend emotion.
Meredith: [voiceover] The truth is painful. Deep down
nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we
tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the
truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And
sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves. Sometimes, we
tell them, because we owe them at least that much.
Meredith: [voiceover] In life only one thing is certain,
apart from death and taxes: No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your
intentions, you are going to make mistakes. You are going to hurt people. You
are going to get hurt. And if you ever want to recover, theres really only one
thing you can say...
CY: Oh...great...I'm stuck in the pit
taking smack heads and gang bangers with my idiot interns and you're getting
McDreamy'd in the elevator.
MG: Really, smack heads
and gang bangers at Seattle Grace, huh?
CY: My point is, I hate
interns.
MG: Lexie's not that
bad is she?
CY: Oh, are we not
hating her anymore?
MG: Oh no, we still
hate the idea of her. We just realize we don't have reason to hate the actual
person.
CY: She's an intern.
That's reason enough.
MG: Ohhh I think you
may be the new Nazi.
CY: Damn right.
Meredith: [voiceover] Forgive and forget. That's what they
say. It's good advice, but it's not very practical. When someone hurts us, we
want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without
forgiveness old scores never settle. Old wounds never heal, and the most we can
hope for is that someday we'll be lucky enough to forget.
Meredith: [voiceover] There’s a reason surgeons learn to
wield scalpels. We like to pretend we’re hard, cold scientists. We like to
pretend we're fearless. But the truth is we become surgeons because somewhere
deep down we think we can cut away that which haunts us. Weakness, frailty,
death.
IS: [Meredith is emptying the contents of
an urn into a plastic baggie] What is that?
MG: My mother.
AK: Happy freaking
Halloween.
CY: [about a baggie of ashes] What are we looking
at?
IS: Meredith put her Mom in a baggie and
brought her to work.
MG: I had to get her
out of my closet, she was haunting me.
AK: Now she’s haunting us all.
CT: You should direct your questions to
Dr. Bailey, Stevens.
CY: Oh, we’re directing
our questions to Dr. Bailey?
CT: Oh, not you, just
Stevens.
MB: Why is Stevens directing her
questions to Dr. Bailey?
CT: Because she’s been
sleeping with my husband. Alrighty then? Have a good day.
CY: This is even more
disturbing than your bag full of Mommy.
Meredith: [voiceover] It isn't just surgeons. I don't know
anyone who isn't haunted by something or someone. And whether we try to slice
the pain away with a scalpel or shove it in the back of a closet- our efforts
usually fail. So the only way we can clear out the cobwebs is to turn a new
page or put an old story to rest- finally, finally to rest.
Meredith: [voiceover] There’s this thing about being a
surgeon. Maybe it’s pride or maybe it’s just about being tough. But a true
surgeon never admits they need help unless absolutely necessary. Surgeons don’t
need to ask for help because they’re tougher than that. Surgeons are cowboys.
Rough around the edges. Hardcore. At least, that’s what they want you to think.
MG: Remember when I was
dead? Before I went in that water everything was so … complicated. Hard. and
then you pulled me out of the water …and I came back to life. for a moment
everything was so clear. As if the water had washed everything clean. Do you
remember that?
DS: I do.
MG: Me too.
Meredith: [voiceover] Deep down, everyone wants to believe
they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn't just about being tough - it's
about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be
hardcore for once. You don't have to be tough every minute of every day. It's
okay to let down your guard. In fact, there are moments when it's the best
thing you can possibly do - as long as you choose your moments wisely.
Meredith: [voiceover] Before we were doctors, we were med
students, which meant we spend a lot of time of studying chemistry. Organic
chemistry, biochemistry, we learned it all. But when you're talking about human
chemistry only one thing matters: either you've got it or you don't.
GO: It's horrible. The
sex. With Izzie...[whispers] horrible. It's like she's trying to hard
i-its...you ever seen a porno? Not that Izzie's a porno; she's an angel, but
it's like she's trying to...channel a porn star and she's trying to act all
dirty and sexy, which sounds great, right? But in reality I just wanna say,
"Izzie, just because you can do that with your
legs doesn't mean that you should.
MG: Eh... I wanna run.
GO: Run, run. Run now!
IS: I love George.
MG: Oh, God...
IS: I do, I love him,
and I'm so happy because he's kind and smart and um, sweet and sexy. He's
perfect, perfect, except for the fact that he kisses like a chicken. You know a
chicken pecking the ground for food, justs pecking and pecking and pecking, and
when he's pecking at me like that I forget that I love him, I forget that he's
kind and sweet and sexy and I just wanna scream, "Stop pecking me!"
Did he peck you like a chicken, Mer?
MG: [Sees Cristina] Cristina needs me.
“I'm not stalking you. I just... I hate apples. Hate them.
Think they shouldn't be allowed to be a fruit. That's one. And... and two, I
can draw really, really well on an etch a sketch. Like, really well, like I
could be a professional if, you know, that profession existed. I play the
trombone... badly. Uh, I like Math. And I notice that you do this thing with
your hands when you're trying to make a point, like... like... like this. And I
know that that's about you, but I ... I do it, too. So it's also about me. And
that's five. Five things that I'm hoping will make it a little bit harder for
you to hate me.” – LG
Meredith: [voiceover] Chemistry, either you've got it or
you don´t.
Meredith: [voiceover] There comes a
point in your life when you're officially an adult. Suddenly, you're old enough
to vote, drink, and engage in other adult activities. Suddenly, people expect
you to be responsible, serious... a grown up. We get taller, we get older. But
do we ever really grow up?
MG: Your dad was in the
ER today.
LG: I know.
MG: So, you know he was
drunk and he put his hand through a window?
LG: Yeah, anything
else?
MG: I know it was
Susan's birthday and I'm sure it was a very hard day for the both of you. And
he wasn't actually a problem, he was kinda charming. But, he seemed very sad
and I'd hate to see it happen again so maybe you should think about keeping a
better eye on him.
LG: Everyday is my
mother's birthday. My mother was born in March. He lied. He's a liar. And I'm
glad. Really, I'm glad that you found him charming. I'm sure he was delightful.
He's a blast after five drinks, not so much after nine though; he gets a little
weepy and mean. He's a drunk, Meredith. He probably came in and told you how
wonderful you are. How sad he is he doesn't get to spend more time with you.
You know, yesterday he told me I was his favorite daughter. The day before, I
was an ungreatful bitch. The week before, he wrote me a check for
twenty-thousand dollars because he said I deserved everything life had to offer
because he was so proud of me, a lifetimes worth of proud. So thank you for
letting me know that I need to keep a better eye on him. Thanks.
Meredith: [voiceover] In some ways we grow up. We have
families, we get married, divorced, but for the most part, we still have the
same problems that we did when we were fifteen. No matter how much we grow
taller, grow older, we are still forever stumbling, forever wondering, forever..
Young.
Meredith: [voiceover] We go into medicine because we want
to save lives. We go into medicine because we want to do good. We go into
medicine for the rush... for the high... for the ride. But, what we rememeber
at the end of most days are the losses. What we lay awake at night replaying is
the pain we caused or failed to cure. The lives we ruined or failed to save. So
the experience of practicing medicine rarely resembles the goal. The experience
too often is ass backwards and upsidedown.
[Dr.Hahn
complimented Mark’s Skills and he told her the story of his dead mentor, who
was like a father to him]
EH: What are we, on a
date here? I was complimenting your surgical skills, Dr. Sloan. Not looking
through a window into your wounded soul.
Meredith: [voiceover] I think it's better to have someone,
even if it hurts, even if it's the most painful thing you have to do, even if
it's the most painful thing you've ever had to do. I think it's better to have
someone.
“Well, Dr. Bailey did save your life today. A black woman
saved your life with a great personal cost. So maybe next time you are looking
at your tattoo and you are thinking how much better all these white guys are
than everyone else. You might wanna think about that. Cause between you and me,
if I had been alone in that O.R., you would probably be dead right now. And
since we are sharing our belief systems, I believe that if you were dead, the
world would be a better place.” – GO
“I don't want you to date other people. I may not be enough
for you, but I'm trying here so I don't want you to date anybody but me. That's
it. Except I'm scared as hell to want you. But here I am wanting you anyway.
And the fear means I have something to lose, right? And I don't want to lose
you.” – MG
CY: You did a good job today. That was
not easy. What you did was not easy, it was brave.
LG: We killed him. The hospital, Sloan,
us. We were not prepared.
CY: Yeah... yeah, that
happens sometimes.
LG: That's... do you
have any idea how backwards that is?
CY: We help more than
we hurt.
Meredith: [voiceover] Some days the whole world seems
upside down. And then somehow, and improbably, and when you least expect it,
the world rights itself again.
Bailey: [voiceover] In the beginning, God created the
Heaven and the earth, at least that’s what they say. He created the birds of
the air and the beasts of the fields, and he looked at his creation and he saw
that it was good. And then God created man, and it’s been downhill ever since. The
story goes on to say that God created man in his own image, but there’s not
much proof of that. After all God made the sun and the moon and the stars, and
all man makes is trouble. And when man finds himself in trouble, which is most
of the time, he turns to something bigger than himself. To love or faith or
religion to make sense of it all. But for a surgeon, the only thing that makes
any kind of sense is medicine.
“There are about a hundred steps between where we are and our
dream house. They’ll be fun steps. They’ll be sexy steps. And we’ll try not to
fall down them together.Okay?” – MG
“Now do you want me to stay here talking to you? Or do you
want me to try and save your baby's life?” – EH
Bailey: [voiceover] As doctors, we know more about the
human body now than at any point in our history. But the miracle of life
itself; why people live and die, why they hurt and get hurt is still a mystery.
We want to know the reason, the secret, the answer at the back of the
book…because the thought of our being all alone down here is just too much for
us to bear. But at the end of the day, the fact that we show up for each other,
in spite our differences, no matter what we believe, is reason enough to keep
believing.
Meredith: [voiceover] We like to think that we are rational
beings; humane, conscientious, civilized, thoughtful. But when things fall
apart, even just a little, it becomes clear we are not better than animals. We
have opposable thumbs, we think, we walk erect, we speak, we dream, but deep
down we are still routing around in the primordial ooze; biting, clawing,
scratching out an existence in the cold, dark world like the rest of the
tree-toads and sloths.
MB: I thought you told
me to keep the animals under control?
RW: From time to time, I like going to
the zoo.
“The
contest is a lion fight. So chin up, put your shoulders back, walk proud, strut
a little. Don't lick your wounds, celebrate them. The scars you bear are the
signs of a competitor. You were in a lion fight, Stevens. Just because you
didn't win doesn't mean you don't know how to roar.” – RW
Meredith: [voiceover]There’s a little
animal in all of us and maybe that’s something to celebrate. Our animal
instinct is what makes us seek comfort, warmth, a pack to run with. We may feel
caged, we may feel trapped, but still as humans we can find ways to feel free.
We are each other’s keepers, we are the guardians of our own humanity and even
though there’s a beast inside all of us, what sets us apart from the animals is
that we can think, feel, dream and love. And against all odds, against all
instinct, we evolve.
Meredith: [voiceover] Great surgeons aren't made, they're
born. It takes gestation, incubation, sacrifice. A lot of sacrifice. But after
all the blood and guts and gooey stuff is washed away that surgeon you've
become - totally worth it.
CT: Did anyone ever
think you two were a couple?
MG: No because we screw
boys like whores on tequila.
CY: And then we either try to marry them
or drown ourselves.
AM: Be the change you
want to see in life. [walks away]
IS: Did you just quote
Gandhi to me?
IS: I was Gandhi, Dr.
Montgomery. I was so freaking Gandhi I kicked Gandhi's ass.
AM: [Richard looks confused] It's an LA thing.
[Callie has suggested to Cristina that she needs to tell
Erica Hahn how she feels about being mistreated]
“Tell
her how I feel? I don't speak girl.” – CY
MG: Hey, you're leaving
already?
AM: I have a plane to
catch...I walk on the beach now, I buy Aromatherapy candles, I'm very zen, but
I want to kick your ass so badly right now it is killing me.
MG: Excuse me?
AM: I'm talking about
Derek. Derek Christopher Shepherd. Are you letting him get away? Because I
swear to God Meredith, if you let him ride off into the sunset with that
doe-eyed little thing...[walks away]
Meredith: [voiceover] Giving birth may be all intense and
magical and stuff, but the act itself is not exactly pleasant. But it's also a
beginning of something incredible, something new, something unpredictable,
something true, something worth loving, something worth missing, something that
will change your life forever.
Meredith: [voiceover] There's this person in my head. She's
brilliant. Capable. She can do chest tubes and craniotomies, she can run a code
without freaking out. She's a really good surgeon. Maybe even a great surgeon.
She's me. Only so much better.
“The
most refined, professional, lady-like doctor in this hospital came to my
defense tonight. Best she could come up with was "he's a whore."”
– MS
MB: Just wanted to drop off the form
myself... answer any questions you might have.
RW: There are interns on this form
MB: Mmhmm.. I require
the energy of youth. Dr. Shepherd was a moment of weakness for both of us.
RW: Dr. Sloan?
MB: Oh that was many
moments. On-call rooms. It was..very hot.
Adele: Mmhmm.. McSteamy.
RW: Alright, Dr. Bailey
I get the joke.
MB: See this is a joke
to you. I am a single woman. I've been a single woman for some time now, but
the very idea that I could have a sexual encounter [She glares at the Board Member
across the table],
a consensual sexual encounter..is a joke to you!
RW: Dr. Bailey I...
MB: So much so that you
would single me out of this entire hospital as the one person who couldn't
interest a member of the opposite sex..it's..it's..it's just...
Adele: It's harassment.
RW: A..Adele!
[Bailey
slaps the Chief's shoulder hard]
MB: Just shame on you
sir! Just shame on you!! [She storms out]
Meredith: [voiceover]: It was a good
day. Maybe even a great day. I was a good doctor, even when it was hard, I was
the me in my head. There was a moment when I thought I can't do this, I can't
do this alone. I close my eyes and imagine myself doing it, and I did, I
blocked out the fear, and I did it.
Meredith: [voiceover] The problem with being a resident is
you feel crazy all the time. You haven't slept in years. You spend everyday
with people in massive crisis. You lose your ability to judge what's normal, in
yourself or anyone else. And yet people are constantly asking you to tell them
how you're doing. How the hell are you supposed to know? You don't even know
how you're doing.
Dr.
Wyatt:
Was your life not working when you let that slip out from under you?
MG: Okay, when are you
going to stop suggesting that I'm suicidal?
Dr.
Wyatt:
When you start acting like someone that wants to be alive.
MG: Give me my chart.
Dr.
Wyatt:
Why?
MG: Because I'm not
suicidal, and if it says that I am, then it's wrong.
Dr.
Wyatt:
What happened last year when you fell in the water?
MG: I almost drowned.
Do you think I did that for kicks?
Dr.
Wyatt:
You put your hand in a body cavity that contained unexploded ordnance.
MG: I was trying to
save a patient!
Dr.
Wyatt:
Why is it that every other person in that room had the sense to hit the deck?
You know, people run away from this line between life and death. You seem to
stand on it and wait for a strong wind to sway you one way or the other. You're
careless with your life. You're not slitting your wrists but you're careless.
Probably because your mother told you you were a waste of space on this planet.
The problem is you believed her. And if you don't watch out, one of these days
you're going to die because of it.
MG: Hand me my chart.
Now! And don't ever talk about my mother again.
LG: I don't know how
you get up in the morning, I honestly don't. Our dad abandoned you. And your
mom by all accounts was the meanest person ever and you can't let Derek love
you and it all really, really sucks. But ever since I knew you existed I had
this fantasy about my big sister and you have failed, on every occasion to live
up to that fantasy. But I still love you, whether you are capable of letting me
or not. So, I forgive you. [storms out of bathroom]
Dr.
Wyatt: [comes out of bathroom stall] Two o'clock work for
you?
MG: Yeah...okay.
“My
mom tried to kill herself, after the love of her life disappeared. I've never
told anybody that before. So, you think I'm broken?! Fix me! 'Cause I'm no
quitter. Let's go!” – MG
Meredith: [voiceover] Don't wonder why people go crazy.
Wonder why they don't. In the face of what we can lose in a day, in an instant,
wonder what the hell it is that makes us hold it all together.
[Meredith
has created the outline of a house out of candles]
MG: Stupid, corny, idiotic, I cannot
believe I did this. Stupid, loser, son of a ... I could be at home instead of
... stupid brain man...
DS: Meredith....
MG: Where have you
been?! I've been waiting and waiting for you! And I did this stupid,
embarrassing, humiliating, corny thing. And I was just gonna tell you that,
this over here is our kitchen and this is our living room, and over there
that's the room where our kids could play. I had this whole thing about I was
gonna build us a house, but I don't build houses because I'm a surgeon! And now
I'm here feeling like a lame ass loser. I got all whole and healed and you don't show
up. And now it's all ruined because you took so long to come home! And I
couldn't even find that bottle of champagne
[Derek
holds up the bottle, shows it to her and smiles]
DS: This the kitchen?
Living room? --a little small. I think the view's much better from here. And
that's where the kids are going to play? Where's our bedroom?
MG: I'm still mad at
you and I don't know if I trust you, I wanna trust you, but I don't know if I
do. So I'm just gonna try, I'm gonna try and trust you. Because I believe that,
we can be extraordinary together rather than ordinary apart and I wanna be ...[They kiss]
DS: I have to go.
MG: What?
DS: In order to kiss
you the way I wanna kiss you and in order to do more than kiss you I need to
speak to Rose. I want my conscience clear so I can do more than kiss you. Stay
here, don't move, wait for me.
Adele: Richard?
RW: I want to come
home.
Adele: Richard...
RW: I'm a good man. I'm
a good man. I've spent my days being a good man for the hospital, for my
residents, for my patients, I'm a good man who made one mistake with a woman
twenty years ago. And I'm a good man for everybody except you I know that.
Would you think I don't know that. But I'm a good man. And I'm your husband.
And I love you. Now I am not asking you to come home. I'm telling you. I am
your husband. And I want to come home to my wife.
[Richard
stops for a moment, with a sense of resignation begins to turn]
Adele: You know... It's
about time.
[They
kiss]
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